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I woke today feeling miserable. I am hoping it is just a cold. I don’t know what is going around, and I hope I don’t give it to Master as he has a big job coming up.
I really don’t feel like posting much today, except that there are those that want updates into my life [...]

I am a sexual being. I am allowed to feel sexy and horny. I need to express myself more to Master. I want him to need me as much as I want him.
Last night Master brought something to my attention for correction, yet again. This one really knocked me down. I never even thought there [...]

Last night’s dinner at azriel’s house was lots of fun. We arrived around 4:30 and Brie was already there. We finally met azriel’s roommate CJ. She’s quiet, very conservative and modest and interesting to talk to. Spent a nice time chatting and waiting for the last one to arrive. I so love being around friends. [...]

I haven’t posted here for awhile, and for that I’m not sure what to say other than I have a lot to catch up on.
First, Sunday Master and I played and I almost fainted. It was pretty scary so I made an appointment to see my doctor. Master was very worried for me and we [...]

Master isn’t talking today. He’s in a major bad mood. He isn’t even horny, which makes me feel like crap because I’ve been trying to get his attention all day. It’s been a month since we played and I am beginning to really need to. He said we can play on Monday, god that seems [...]

** What book, movie, or website most influenced your first impressions of what slavery was about? How has that changed as you started living as a slave? Two Hearts One Soul gave me the most insight to what living as a slave would be like. You can still find the beautiful pages at: http://www.twoheartsonesoul.com. I [...]

Trials and challenges always drain me of energy. I feel so exhausted today.
The munch Saturday went well and afterward Master and I went bowling with azriel. It was a lot of fun. I did blow out my right knee again, so I’m in a bit of pain. There was an incident near the end of [...]

Boy was yesterday a bunch of up an downs. I finally got my refund check, so I can get my bills paid. I will feel relieved when I can get the checks sent on Monday. Then of course I feel anxiety because the refund just isn’t enough to live on and pay the bills. I [...]

The storm has passed, the two days it came down I thought it would never end. We now have 12″ of snow on the ground in front of my apartment. I am hoping that I get my butt out there today and clear off my car, as that will be a chore in itself. [...]

I know it’s going to sound like I’m counting down the days or something, but this diet isn’t something that keeps my motivation or sustains my willpower for very long. Truthfully it isn’t a hard diet to follow. I’m not on a major reduction of food, I’m just required more variety. Exercise will be the [...]

I hope that my new year’s resolutions will stick. I have a lot of hopes to see them through, but I also know how my motivation holds out. It’s terrible. So today I start my cleaning list, the place will be maintained. Monday I start my diet, ouch. And as far as my submissive contract [...]