BDSM is Love

I haven’t posted here for awhile, and for that I’m not sure what to say other than I have a lot to catch up on.

First, Sunday Master and I played and I almost fainted. It was pretty scary so I made an appointment to see my doctor. Master was very worried for me and we stopped playing that night, which saddened me. I was so enjoying the play time before the mishap, I wanted to go back to it after I recovered. So, I didn’t get to play after that.

At the bar meet on Tuesday we asked everyone there if they could guess what was going on. There were guesses of high blood pressure, locked knees, and my recent diet changes affecting me. I took all that information and prepared to go to the doctor.

On Wednesday I went to the doctor and had to go through a 30 min test where I stood and they took my blood pressure every 5 min to monitor changes. The doctor then talked extensively with me about what it really was: hypoglycemic faints. Anyone that stands for long periods without movement can and will suffer lightheadedness, flush, floaty feelings and then faints. He suggested that I move more often and work pulse taking into play so that Master could monitor me better. I was so relieved to hear it wasn’t my blood pressure.

I’ve had a hard time this week drinking all the water that I’m supposed to in my diet. I guess I will have to work harder to keep up next week. I hope I can loose the weight I want to. I’m going to hate dieting forever, but it has to be a life change, not a diet. Master will help me with that. I have to exercise. I have to feel better about myself.

I have a presentation on Tuesday. This weekend, preferably Sunday I am going to work on getting it all together. I have to phone my partner in the afternoon so that we can work things through in order. I’m sure we will do fine, but I always stress about presentations, especially in Spanish.

Tomorrow Master and I go to azriel’s house for a lasagna dinner. It should be a great time. Brie and Integrity will be there too. I’m so happy to have friends around that we can do things with. Hopefully we will move one day and be closer to them. I thrive around friends.

Master is looking into more freelance work. I hope he can find something. I am also still waiting on job information so that I can work too. We really could use some income.

–luna