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I did a lot of housework today, and feel somewhat relieved that the house is clean. I never thought I would feel so good about my housework. I felt energized and have other cleaning to do later, maybe on Wednesday if I don’t have a lot of homework.
Speaking of homework I have some preparation to [...]

There is a time in everyone’s life when they realize that there is more out there than helplessness. I can’t explain the feelings I’ve had since last Tuesday when I said good bye for good to my ex. I’m actually still adjusting to my new found place at Master’s feet. I think that my new [...]

That essay test yesterday was very challenging. I hope I did a good job. I filled up the entire bluebook. Now that the stress is gone from that test I can relax a bit. WRONG I have so much homework this weekend, I will be running hard just to catch up. Thank god Spring Break [...]

Yesterday I was free. I felt such a weight lifted off of me. I went to Master completely changed. Changed and super horny. My god I have never felt so insatiable. And well, being that Master is so young, we had a ball. The neighbors didn’t appreciate it. First time I’ve had them [...]

Dear ex,
I’m moving on, after 2 years of separation, guilt, blame and sadness, I am moving forward. I know I’m very late in writing this letter, it should have been told you long before now. Now that I’m in a new relationship, a relationship I want, truly need; you must not interfere.
I am happy with [...]

Today is the first Dom/sub forums that I will be co running. I am pretty excited about a good turn out. We don’t have an RSVP set though, so who knows how many will appear for the discussion. I have done a bit of preparation for tonight so that I know a few different viewpoints [...]

This blog is beginning to look like a depression party. I am constantly finding things out about myself that I really don’t like, wish to change, hate that I did or am disappointed in the outcome. Lately, as in starting last night, I felt really bad about the rules list that Master had given me [...]

Yesterday’s celebration of love and commitment was wonderful. I have never felt so alive, so loved and so much a part of someone else’s life. I can only say that I want more of the same for the future. Master and I celebrated our first Valentine’s Day yesterday with some traditional things, and some fun [...]

I am becoming the person I had always hoped I could be. However, things are progressing so slowly that it makes me ask why I am not allowing changes into my life. Why am I rebelling at the small things that I know will make my life, my submission, my happiness the fullest measure? When [...]

This week has been full of tests and quizzes, not all that challenging and then papers and more tests that have stretched the brain into acrobatic tricks I didn’t know I could do. I have had tests in all my classes this week, you would think it was mid terms if I didn’t know any [...]

This weekend provides me with a lot of things to do, and yet I really can’t get motivated to do them. I have this big essay to do for Thursday only 2 pages in and I’m stuck. I guess I’ve been looking at it too long. I have 2 quizzes on Tuesday that I haven’t [...]

You never know how bored you can get, till you are sick. I’m not saying that the time I spent laying around or sleeping wasn’t helpful, but there is only so much time someone can remain inactive. I really hope, however, that I can make it through today’s classes without getting more ill. I’m certain [...]