Today was very challenging to me. I was testy, grumpy and not someone you wanted to hang around. I’m not sure why I am this way other than hormone levels, but I can’t blame it all on that. Perhaps I am needing time away, and with no money and no where to go, I’m beginning to feel stuck. I have no clue how Master is feeling. He can’t go anywhere unless I take him.

I’m going to look further into working PHP. I want to know how to make dynamic pages more than what I have already. Also I have dreams of another website, vanilla in nature to help me with what I enjoy doing. That is reading Spanish poetry, enjoying the art and understanding the literary styles incorporated in them. I’ve not found a decent site that has all that in one place. I also now with all the work involved in doing that it will be years in the making. Boy when I dream I dream big.

I want to go to the munch this Saturday, but it will depend on if Master gets any money before Saturday. It’s at a Chinese buffet. God it’s been a long time since I’ve had Chinese food. I’m hoping some of my friends will be there and that the conversation is good.

I’ve begun reading things for the D/s forums on the 21st. I am certain that this topic will be helpful for everyone who comes and that I will enjoy myself. It’s about wants vs. needs. Even I have a hard time differentiating at times. Hopefully we can work though how to recognize what is what. There are a couple of very good articles online that I will be referencing to. If you want to share your thoughts on wants vs. needs, please go to my discussion forum.

I am supremely disappointed that no one is using my message board. You don’t even have to register to submit your thoughts. I really do think it could be a place to learn if people will use it. While you sit there reading about my life, come out and share your thoughts with me. What harm is there?

–luna