We have ignition!
Okay so I started my diet again yesterday and as always I feel like this time is “the” time I will be able to stay on track. I really think that with my new online support team of friendly submissives sending me sweet messages and wishing me luck on an occasional basis just might help. I need to drink all the water for the day and remember to exercise. Those two will really bite me in the butt if I don’t do them. I did my exercise video last night and realized just how out of shape I had gotten. It’s sweet to hear Master give me words of encouragement. I just wish I didn’t have to fish for them. I warned him I’m high maintenance and that means a lot of praise and encouragement when it’s due. (That is of course if it is truly due.)
I also had a friend send me a link to a website, that is also a yahoo group. It is FlyLady.net. Very interesting. It helps mostly stay at home women with decuttering and crawling out of chaos living to a more structured, organized life. From what I’ve read so far, it sure sounds like a Dominant marching out cleaning orders, but we shall see. I think I may give it a shot, in baby steps. If I want to be Master’s little stay at home slave some day I think I need to know how to keep the house orderly and enjoy doing it. I need to develop good cleaning habits and stay organized all around.
On the subject of staying organized I have a paper and a presentation on Thursday of which I am not ready for either. I am half way through both of them at the moment and it is adding a lot of stress to my life not having either of them finished. Thank god we only have 4 weeks left of classes. I don’t know how much more I can take!
I started my rules list with Master officially. I have to keep in mind all my rules until they become habit as well. Right now it’s on a points system, and I can earn rewards (one of them is a shopping trip!) to make sure I stay on track.
I realize all this sounds like a lot, and it probably is, I’m facing possible failures here, but I want to change my life and lifestyle and I’m far from patient about it. I want it all now! Well, at least I am not stupid and taking huge steps. I’m going slow, little leaps at a time. If I can’t accomplish it all one day there is always tomorrow.
My good friend a is ill, she has pneumonia. I’m worried about her. She is almost done with grad school and then she moves at the end of April, to Las Vegas (lucky girl). I’m hoping that she will get to feeling better and we can hang out again a few times before she has to go. I’m gonna miss her.
–luna
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luna,
Wow, you were able to get a list of expectations from your Master? *g* i am still waiting for mine. Like you, i need to feel his presence and yes, Domination, even when we are apart. Which is more often than not.
i also wanted to give you a small word of encouragement. You are a very beautiful woman. i saw your picture on taking it off and i just thought i should share that. i know you want to lose weight so you will feel better about yourself but in the meantime i hope you see someone worthy and worthwhile when you look in the mirror. i am only 5′2″ and weigh in at 212 right now. My measurements are the same as yours and you are a *bit* taller than me.
You are not a petite woman but you have symmetry, balance and proportion, all of which are very pleasing to the human eye.
Here’s wishing you luck on being more focused! And remember…DRINK THAT WATER!!! LOL
~november~