BDSM is Love

Master and I played hard today after a long dry spell. It was so wonderful to feel at his mercy and used so well. I am certain to be aching for days to come after tonight. We used a new toy that a friend of us had made. He calls it an octocrop. It’s a crop that has a rubber flogger end on it. Very stingy and quite intense. I enjoyed it quite a bit, and I know that Master did too… with that smile on his face.

I have another hope for a job and will wait for a call next week on it. It would be a desk type job with sitting allowed, so I am happy about that. I would like to be working and I know Master would like to see me doing something other than be here all day. Wish me luck!

I have to meet with my academic advisor next week to clear up a problem I’ve had with my financial aid for next semester. I’m sure it will go fine, but I’m still paranoid that I might loose my aid and have to drop out. Let’s keep a cool head until I know for sure after the holiday.

I have seen recently that a lot of the blogs that I used to read are being closed down because the writers are leaving the lifestyle behind. I don’t know how one can do that. I signed in for the long haul. I take the good, the bad and the difficult with it. Can you really sign up for something like this and not be serious about it enough to just be able to stop whenever you want? It’s hard for me to comprehend. If someone told me that tomorrow I would not want to be submissive in the D/s lifestyle I would almost laugh in their face. I will have to think about this some more, I feel a bit baffled right now. It could be the mindset I’m in right now.

–luna