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Master has noted that I’m not home much this week. I’m so busy with classes and work and working out and munch functions that he hasn’t gotten a lot of my time. This is just one of those things that happens in a regular relationship. Sometimes it’s just impossible to be at Master’s feet all [...]

I received our new toys from BDSM Gear today! Thank you starla and your Master for beautiful new cuffs, thigh cuffs and dreaded gag. The gag wasn’t really my choice, but you do was Master desires right? I got to model the new set for Master last night and he loved it.
Now if you haven’t [...]

I’ve been swamped with all manner of work lately and haven’t really had time to reflect on anything. Sadly I am not missing that either.
Yesterday I turned into Master’s little sex machine and was so freakin horny from the time I came home till the time I went to bed, I can’t explain it. I [...]

Master has been very kind to me lately as I struggle once again with shoulder pain. I wish I could afford the Dr bill to find out what is wrong. I hate that I don’t have health insurance. So many things that the trip to the Dr said the pain could be and none of [...]

As I go around the blogland I always come back to one point. Some people are really good at telling stories, others sharing their lives and still others aren’t good for anything but quizes and tag games. (No offense to anyone really, this is just a generality.) I try to figure out where I am [...]

Yesterday driving conditions turned dangerous and I had to get home. I started out doing just fine, going about 15 mi under the speed limit. I’m a good driver, always cautious but nature had it in for me.
At a four way stop, there is a curved lead into the right hand turn, so that it’s [...]

How do you address others in the lifestyle? Do you automatically give strangers respect, or give automatic courtesy and wait for the individual to earn personal respect? — Kindlings
This very question comes up on practically every list I’m on, every real life group, every conversation on IM’s and on IRC and the confusion of new [...]

Can you hear me?
I am whispering your name.
My mind has sung the praises of your love,
traveled the hopes and dreams as they are born.
You bring life to joy.
Heartfelt pride and honor keep you strong.
Woman, you guard the heart of a man;
Safe in your arms
Submission is not a weakness
it is a strength, glorifying
the simple pleasure to [...]

–Begin Personal Rant–
Master has gotten into the habit of saying this quite often, at least this week. Now on a normal occasion where this would come in is if I had forgotten to say thank you, as I’m supposed to. Lately that “reminder” has come immediately after Master doing something for me. He doesn’t even [...]

It was some of the most mind-blowing sex I have ever had. Last night was incredible and I can’t even figure out why.
After Master and I returned home from the munch we were both pretty horny and wanted each other. Nothing out of the ordinary there. Somehow the sex seemed so much more intimate, powerful [...]

I see that I was tagged from Angel, and so I will try to answer.
7 Things To Do Before I Die:
Publish a collection of poetry.
Travel to England.
Let my mom know that she is forgiven.
Build a Spanish poetry database.
Loose 100 lbs.
Write down as much of my life story as possible
Try 3 foods that I thought I [...]

This isn’t the normal discussion of internet 3rd person speech by Gorean slaves. This is 3rd person speech that I have noticed in my own relationship. I don’t see it as a bad thing, just unusual. It drives me, and I know that Master is receptive to it too.
Within a scene, be it sexual or [...]

Today was a short fuse day. I can’t explain it; I was just grouchy, and if things didn’t go my way then I was mad. I’ve never been so angry about the simplest things. I don’t know why I have such a short fuse today but Master certainly noticed and expressed his concern and desire [...]

April last year was a whirlwind of stress, worry and change! Wow, as I read back I see a whinny, temper tantrum filled month will major changes on the horizon. In the heat of an argument I handed my first collar back to Master. One that I regretted for the 2 weeks that followed as [...]

I’d like to discuss something. This is my opinion, my thoughts. I am not accusing anyone of anything. I am not exerting any expert advice.
As many of you know, I am in a weight loss group for submissives. We are there to support one another and to cheer each other on in our task to [...]

We got the money we had been waiting for today so I was finally able to get food and my school books. Classes start on Monday and I’m beginning to be nervous. It’s my last semester, as most of you know.
I bought Master a rose today when I was out on errands. He thought that [...]

Wow, I can’t believe it’s been a year since I started my list of rules that has grown steadily longer and more invovling. I couldn’t live without these rules now that I have them. I wrote about the struggle with doing what Master wishes, and that I wasn’t feeling submissive enough to care about doing [...]

Have you felt illness or other factors (depression, stress, PMS, etc) interfere with your ability to serve as well as you want? How do you handle those times? from Kindlings
Right now I’m having a huge bout of PMS. Within that challenge are hormonal imbalances that cause me mental and emotional stress. I am grumpy, fatigued, [...]

February wasn’t fantastic by any standards. What I do remember is a sweet romantic Valentine’s Day where Master and I had huge, and I mean huge submarine sandwiches and cuddled and played all day. I remember that my Master got a job late that month and has had it since, supporting us the best he [...]

Year in Review will be my attempt to remember and hopefully learn from events and behaviors that occured last year. I will try, each time I post, to recall a month and the important events that may have occured. I’ve seen something similar happening in blogland all over and I guess I can give it [...]