BDSM is Love

Have you felt illness or other factors (depression, stress, PMS, etc) interfere with your ability to serve as well as you want? How do you handle those times? from Kindlings

Right now I’m having a huge bout of PMS. Within that challenge are hormonal imbalances that cause me mental and emotional stress. I am grumpy, fatigued, antisocial, my sex drive is non-existent and I can’t see it getting better till my period passes. Some months it’s worse than others, and I always have to remind Master that the reason I’m looking down in the dumps is because of that. He looks so worried and I try to reassure him that I’m fine. These times really affect the way I serve and how I serve. Sex is just not an interest I have, although I know that Master needs that. I don’t feel like being touchy-feely and really just want to be left alone, but Master is a very affectionate man. I have to zip my lip on many occasions to try not to say what I’m thinking, as it’s inappropriate and would get me in trouble.

How I handle these times now is not how I’d like to handle them. I basically shut myself off and close myself off from everyone. It’s not working well with Master and I know that he would prefer that I still serve and try to act as normal as possible. It may require supplements or other meds to really balance my behavior. I’m not sure if any other method is really possible.

–luna