BDSM is Love

April last year was a whirlwind of stress, worry and change! Wow, as I read back I see a whinny, temper tantrum filled month will major changes on the horizon. In the heat of an argument I handed my first collar back to Master. One that I regretted for the 2 weeks that followed as I know he didn’t give it back right away. That was the worst feeling I’d had in a long time. I remember it started because I was fighting against a punishment I thought was unfair. This began a change in our relationship.

I have not been punished like in the beginning since that incident. That’s not to say I haven’t been punished, but I’ve noticed they are more subtle. I realize that with some things I will need to be punished, it is the only way I will learn. We developed the point system that I am still on and have added to a few times. The points work towards larger rewards that I can then spend my earned points on. Things like Master cooks night, new clothing, or a massage by Master. The one I use most often is staying up past my bedtime.

Max, one of my kitties, was also quite ill this month. He had a bout with UTI’s and spent 2 days in the hospital because of it. I was so worried about him because he would just howl and cry and piddle everywhere but the box! Oiy! Now that has led to us purchasing the expensive medicated food from now on, as the generic doesn’t work as well and he has not had any problems since then.

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On a more current font, my first day of class went well. I’m sure I will be able to keep up decently enough with work and school and free time. I am going to work out today, first time this semester and I hope to get some cardio done. I also weighed yesterday and for those of you who are cheering me on, I’ve lost 5 lbs over Christmas break! That makes a total so far of 22 lbs gone forever! Yay!

–luna