BDSM is Love

Today was a short fuse day. I can’t explain it; I was just grouchy, and if things didn’t go my way then I was mad. I’ve never been so angry about the simplest things. I don’t know why I have such a short fuse today but Master certainly noticed and expressed his concern and desire that I resolve it quickly.

I have a ton of stress with classes starting. I hope that I can find time within my day for relaxation and worry free time. I’m stressing over having a job at the same time as school, that I’m able to devote the needed time to both things and make sure I get them done satisfactory. My boss is aware that school comes first and he is fine with that so my anxiety is all in my head.

It has been months since I had any sadomasochistic play. Not even a spanking recently and I think that may have something to bear on the short fuse today. Perhaps I need Master to recenter me. I’ve read about submissive who need it regularly just to stay on track and focused the rest of the week. Sometimes I wish we made time for that.

My hamster Peaches died on Tuesday. He was the last hamster I will probably ever have and it was a quiet ending to his life. I had just fed him the day before and talked to him. He was looking quite fraile, so I haven’t picked him up for some time. No need to stress out a very old hamster with handling him too much. I believe he was over 2 years old, so very productive life also. I know his little life blessed mine with company on many occasions.

This weekend is the local munch and I am looking forward to seeing our friends after a long draught of not being able to make it to the events. I really enjoy the community that they offer. I have yet to plan the next D/s forums and I have that on my mind a bit too. I need to reserve the space before I worry about theme or subject matter. First things first.

–luna