BDSM is Love

–Begin Personal Rant–

Master has gotten into the habit of saying this quite often, at least this week. Now on a normal occasion where this would come in is if I had forgotten to say thank you, as I’m supposed to. Lately that “reminder” has come immediately after Master doing something for me. He doesn’t even give me a chance to see what he did or ask about something that I don’t understand, he just expects a thank you right away.

Now I know I’m to be grateful and honest with my pleases and thank-you’s. He requires that of me. I’m still learning to do it all the time, but to be prompted before I get a chance to remember on my own, feel sincere in my reply he wants it. I feel really annoyed with his current attitude at the situation.

I snaped at him and told him if he really wanted me to be sincere he needs to give me more than 30 secs to see what it is I’m supposed to be thankful for. As an example today Master did a symlink to My Music folder so that the start menu goes to the right place. Now I investigated it, and then asked him how he did it. His first words weren’t “I did a symbolic link.” they were “A thank you would be nice.” Well, that just put me off to the whole thing and I blew my top. Give me a freakin chance to appreciate what you’ve done, for Christ’s sake!

He told me “end of discussion” and I’m still put off, so here I am, writing the rest of my thoughts down so that I can stop being upset at his expectation. Life will go on.

–End Rant–

–luna