BDSM is Love

As I go around the blogland I always come back to one point. Some people are really good at telling stories, others sharing their lives and still others aren’t good for anything but quizes and tag games. (No offense to anyone really, this is just a generality.) I try to figure out where I am within all that. I’d like to think I’m a happy medium. I just don’t know. I tell stories, occasionally. I’m great with just sharing my life, I reflect a lot which makes my trip into the submissive an easier thing. Master learns what he needs to from it so I guess all in all, this journal is doing it’s job, just as I’m sure other’s journals do what they are supposed to do.

Tonight Master gave me an option of giving him a blow job or receiving anal play. With all my queasiness about anal play and things to do with my ass, no matter how much I enjoy the “end” result, I can’t believe I choose anal over sucking his dick. Then again a girl sometimes just doesn’t feel like sucking and let’s face it, he’s gotten quite a few blow jobs in the past 2 weeks, as I’ve pointed out to him.

So I went into the bathroom to prepare, shave, bathe and all that jazz; not knowing what Master has planned, if it’s a full blown scene or just play. When I come out of the bath, he reassures me that it’s just some play. He wants to explore the toy situation again and see if what I have been experiencing is all in my mind or if there is other things affecting me. The anal toys we have are made of jelly and rubber and one is this plastic like material. Since Master arrived, and not before, I started getting a burning sensation, quite severe whenever anal toys are used on me. It’s almost an instant thing. From what I’ve deduced the rubber definitely does it. Not really in my pussy but my ass just flares up. We both thought that maybe it was going to fast, or not enough lube. Something like that.

It turns out from testing today that the rubber ones are still a solid NO for my ass. On a side note, he was able to get 6 fingers in there, surprised me! I’m such a whore Master would say

–luna