BDSM is Love

Master came to me last night with a concern. It was a concern that has come up before but we have been unable to resolve it to either of our satisfaction. We do not play enough. Each for their own reason, but I know that it is craved and needed more often than we do it. We both have our thoughts on it.

I think that it’s because we just have so much going on in our lives that there isn’t time to step back, and take the us time that playing requires. Even simple scenes seem time consuming and leave us both sapped of energy for sometimes days to come. I crave playing a lot and hope to have it more often in any capacity.

Master says that he doesn’t crave it as badly as he used to, and the reasoning behind it is that he is overthinking the preparation for playing. He says that when he plans somthing he thinks and thinks and then when it comes time, it doesn’t come out how he wanted it.

Perhaps if we included small bits of play in our foreplay we’d get what we both need more often. That was a conclusion that both of us agreed may help us find that small piece of the puzzle that has been neglected. Months have gone by without a sore butt or aching nipples or rope burn. I’d almost like a constant reminder of fun times. That is a goal I’m sure we can acheive.

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On another front, if you have been reading my blog you know that I’m always having problems with submitting and fighting the independent nature I have and probably will always have in some facet of life. I’ve come to the conclusion that I can’t work on changing alone. Here is what I am proposing. I am going to look for a mentor, a female submissive with the same common interests, but with way more experience and the patience to work rather intimately with me. I am looking for someone to make me think about who I am and who I want to be. I need someone to push me to succeed at what goals Master and I have. Now, Master is the ultimate rule here, but with guidance I think I can reach his idea of perfection a lot faster than on my own. If you think you could help me on a daily basis to find myself within submission, please don’t hesitate to email me at luna@the-iron-gate.com. I truely am seeking a mentor. This is no joke.

–luna