BDSM is Love

Master wanted to play last night, and while I didn’t know he brought me into the bedroom and I wondered what was going to do. It seemed like sex was on his mind but I was wrong. After he helped me undress he reached for my nipples and instantly I was in pain. I just can’t understand why they hurt so bad but I began bending down trying to get it to stop hurtting as he pulled and I just lost it, I began to cry and cry pretty badly.

That turned him off. It always has, as soon as I cry he’s done. But then it was weird. He was upset, called himself dumb and I still couldn’t understand why I was still crying. Goodness sake it was just a bit of nipple pulling.

Granted it’s been over 3 months since we did any pain play and I know both of us are aching for some. Perhaps we need to prepare ourselves more, warm up and then get into something. I asked Master to please plan on doing something again. I know we both want it.

I feel I let him down. I feel I should have tried harder. I can’t explain why it hurt more than usual. I just can’t explain.

–luna