BDSM is Love

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I have a problem. It’s serious and I’m ready to face it head on and see if I can do something about it.
About 6 months ago I started to change. My body and mind stopped being turned on by the things it used to. I stopped being horny. I stopped fantasizing about anything, I [...]

My life has been turned upside down recently. My body has stopped responding the way it used to when it comes to sex and thinking about sex. I’m terrified because I haven’t been horny in months, I haven’t had a craving for sex or orgasm in months and it’s begun to affect our relationship. [...]

Boy is it warm out there. And since it’s Iowa, it’s also terribly humid. I admit I’d rather have heat than humidity anyday.
Memorial Day tomorrow and I’m not doing anything really. I think we are having hamburgers but nothing big. Other than the Memory of vetrans who have and are fighting in wars, it’s the [...]

Today I have been so annoyed with Master. I’m not 100% sure why but it has lead to some very tense moments and I have taken a long drive to get away from my thoughts for the day.
I woke up at 5:30am. I haven’t done so in over a year and I just couldn’t sleep, [...]

From Submissive Journal Prompts: Can BDSM be considered a sexual orientation?
I’ve recently been of the volition that sexual orientation can not only describe your gender specific sexual identity but also the differences in how you enjoy sex. For example, someone with an extreme but healthy fetish would have that fetish as a requirement for sex, [...]

I’m depressed. I’ve spent all day on a short fuse and feeling like the world is collapsing in on itself. It could be a number of things bothering me. I am done with school; school has been my routine for over 6 years and now I don’t have to look forward to going back anymore. [...]

Master checked my IUD again and said it was back to it’s original length so I’m in no emergent hurry to get to the doctor.
I am going job hunting tomorrow, wish me luck. I hate job hunting.
I’ve been really bored lately. Any suggestions for things to do?
–luna

Master and were going to have all sorts of kinky sex yesterday. I woke up horny and was all in the mood. That is until the ultimate mood breaker happened.
I have an IUD, and to make sure it’s in place correctly there are strings like fishing line protruding from my cervix. Generally they are cut [...]

I have a couple of concerns, neither of which are related to each other. The first is a possible medical concern that I will be looking into sometime this next week. The last time Master and I were going to be intimate, he couldn't find the string of my IUD. Well, after some poking he [...]

I just love weekends. I’ve begun planning a Saturday with Master and I hope to live up to what I want it to be someday. I can’t say for sure, but I’d love it to be a lot of us time. I woke up horny this morning and gave Master a handjob. I think he [...]

Frankly, I have to admit this is hard stuff. I have been only at the Speech training discussed in the previous post for a day and I feel like a parrot. I’m constantly saying Master, please and thank you following behind and least adhered to, but not the worst is my cursing. I’ve noticed that [...]

I’m questioning myself tonight. Master had a lot of issues that he wanted to get off his chest; things that I’m not doing that somewhere along the lines we had agreed I’d do. I realize that I need to get back into trying to do them. Master wants to become more assertive than he currently [...]

I’m questioning myself tonight. Master had a lot of issues that he wanted to get off his chest; things that I’m not doing that somewhere along the lines we had agreed I’d do. I realize that I need to get back into trying to do them. Master wants to become more assertive than he currently [...]

I am to give Master a blow job tonight. I can’t really talk about how I feel about it. I have to just suck it up and do it. There is no such thing as “no” when it comes to sex.
Master talked to me about a lot of things, most of which I don’t have [...]

I am to wake Master this morning with sexual activities. He requested and so I must provide. Sound easy right? Not really with Master’s usual disposition after waking, his method of wrapping the blankets so tight around himself after I’ve risen and my sometimes inability to be horny at just the right time.
Tactics must be [...]

When I speak of baggage I do not speak of your trusty old set of Samsonite, I am speaking of emotional baggage.
Emotional baggage is a laymen’s term for the emotional turmoil and distress that each individual experiences when confronted with a negative experience. From each experience in our life we can learn and grow. However, [...]

Thigh cuffs, wrist cuffs and a gag. My hands were bound to my thighs while I was on what could be called all fours but I was chin to the bed. The embarrasing part was the ball gag… one of Master’s new favorite toys. I’m not sure if he likes the drool or my attempts [...]

Master has always expressed certain things he wished I would do, or would pay more attention to. I think, if I can add it to my list of duties, dieting, housework and searching for a job I am going to add a submissive task to my weekly improvements list.
We have talked about the fact that [...]

Service is one of the most primary, the most basic of terms within the BDSM realm. Service can loosely be defined as an act or work done by one individual to the benefit another, but what does service mean within the BDSM realm.
The need to serve is the most fundamental desire within a slave; the [...]

Norische has a slave training manual that I have been slowly putting on The Iron Gate. I’ve not had the chance to read it all, but I thought it would be good to post them here and then comment how I need to apply it to my life of service.
The reason I am doing [...]