I’m sitting here today trying to write down the rules that Master has applied to my life since he claimed me a year and a half ago. It’s not an easy task, but one I feel may help me see how far I’ve gone and how much further I wish/need to go. I keep thinking it would be nice to have more structure, but I know that Master would have more work on his plate with that and I don’t feel he’s up to the challenge just yet. So I’m sitting here today, as I’ve said, just trying to see what I already do that I would never have done of my own volition 2 years ago. At some point I may post what I have come up with. I may discuss rules that have fallen by the wayside, training that never got off the ground and the things that just aren’t a part of my rules anymore. It’s gotten lax around here, let me tell you.

Why I’m even looking for more rules and structure is still beyond me. I’ve got my routines to follow to make sure house maintenance is done. (I have yet to complete them all everyday, but a little progress is better than none.) I have a few rules that have just become common everyday things that I do for Master. That’s about it. We have discussed on many occasions some training that I’d or he’d like to have. It usually gets practiced for about a week and then forgotten. During that week, however, I feel loved, secure, happy, and all around paid attention too. I’m thinking this may be why I’m searching my heart and mind for the list of rules and behaviors I currently have.

I’m out of school, and while that may mean a bit more free time; until I have a job, I’d like to work on my behavior for Master. I realize he is proud of me and loves me, I see it everyday. I want to continue to grow. I know there are things that need work, behaviors that are non-existent that Master really needs or wants from me, and rules that go unfollowed and not enforced. Somethings have to change.

Master, when you read this please don’t take it as a failure on your part. We have done wonderfully growing together as a D/s couple. I don’t want that to change. But I’m here, ready for more change, more structure and more power handed over to you. We can start whenever you feel ready. I will do my best to obey. My heart and body are yours. Please help me become the submissive I know is in there.

–luna