BDSM is Love

Frankly, I have to admit this is hard stuff. I have been only at the Speech training discussed in the previous post for a day and I feel like a parrot. I’m constantly saying Master, please and thank you following behind and least adhered to, but not the worst is my cursing. I’ve noticed that if I catch myself forgetting that I scrunch up my face and then apologize to Master quickly enough. I believe that he is noticing my attention to it. I hope that it will become habit soon enough.

I’m still in wishful thinking for some punishment/discipline for when I need to be corrected. I’m not sure why other than I know I need it sometimes. There isn’t a way to get Master to do it however so I will just have to watch it and not let myself get to far out of line. I just upsets him and then he goes all quiet and depressed. *sigh* I’d like to blame it on his age/maturity. I know it will change though. He hates that he’s so immature, but sheesh, he’s only 22.

There is another issue, but I don’t know how important it is to things right now. It’s something that we have gotten by on the past 2 years and I guess if I had a choice, I would continue on this path than try to correct it. (les conflict this way)…. I’ll think about it.

–luna