I need help
My life has been turned upside down recently. My body has stopped responding the way it used to when it comes to sex and thinking about sex. I’m terrified because I haven’t been horny in months, I haven’t had a craving for sex or orgasm in months and it’s begun to affect our relationship. I don’t like giving blowjobs anymore and I used to love them. I am never the initiator in sex, as I don’t feel horny. It takes me so long in foreplay to even show interest in sex and I know I love Master with my whole being. I just don’t know what’s happening to me nor how to get it back.
I was once a sex machine, constantly horny and Master just couldn’t satisfy me enough. Boy did he try though and it was great. What in the world happened? I want it back. I want to be his sex goddess again. It’s tearing me apart. Master is so confused and frustrated and I don’t know how to help him because I don’t know how to help me.
I’ve thought of a few things that might help in turning my mind to sex again, although I don’t know if they will work, I think I”ll see if I can try them.
- Ask for more orgasms as a part of sex. Maybe it’s because my body is dormant that I am changing.
- Touch Master more. He has said on many occasions that I don’t touch him much anymore and that he loves that. He gets goosebumps every time I touch him. I want to bring that to him more often.
- Begin reading erotica on a regular basis. I hope that this will spark my fantasies again that have become dormant.
- Begin writing my short sex stories again. If this doesn’t stir my body into horniness I don’t know what to do.
That’s all I can think of right now. If anyone who reads this blog has other ideas I’m open to hear them.
–luna
I'm luna, KnyghtMare's submissive since 2004. I'm a BBW with brown hair and blue eyes. I've been married, separated, almost divorced now; living with my Master.
Master placed his permanent collar on me January 27, 2006. I'm learning and growing into the perfect submissive for him. I'm changing my behaviors, my attitude and my thought processes to become a better person.
This is an adult blog. If you get offended to talk of sex, sexuality and BDSM, please turn back now.
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i wanted to tell you that i went through something similar. my husband had stopped being interested in sex, giving me all sorts of reasons why and honestly after hearing my short-comings from him for so long, i had just stopped caring for a long time. During that time, i really had no libido for the longest time. The odd thing was i had started wondering if there was something really and truly wrong with me, i couldn't stand to give blow jobs to him and it got to the point that in our relationship, that is all he wanted. even when he was at his worst he would push that with me. but an old friend came back into my life, someone from my past, an online friend from college, and as we got reacquainted and everything; i realized that there were feelings inside me. my friend started to bring out those feelings again. as i started masturbating again and having orgasms again, my periods came back after been absent for months and even when they did come they weren't as painful. My GYN said that orgasms even during "our monthly flow can lessen the intensity of cramps and the pain." Something for you to keep in mind. Also my friend came to visit and we got together finally after only having been friends online for 12+ years and he taught me to "feel again and to love again" and i found that i wasn't the one with the issues. Not completely. He's who i would submit to 24/7 would i be given the chance, because i love him so much and i want to make his life easier. But i also found that i loved pleasuring him… something i had been told by my own husband that i "was terrible at" but my friend still shivers when he thinks about the weekend i spent with him and how amazing it was for him, and it was just as amazing for me; knowing i was bringing him pleasure that way.. something his current vanilla gf wont do for him and no other woman has other done. What i have found is that i enjoyed it, the taste especially even though i thought i would have issues with it. So I was thinking that maybe something I wrote might help you… I wrote it after he left, as a teaser to him, to let him know that i was investigating additional ways in which to torture him in the future and it certainly did that along with every other man on my blogging site… it's a blog on the joy of giving oral sex. but it talks about the ways to help change the taste of semen too. here's the link: http://elvenbeads.shoutpost.com/13269/the-joy-of-giving-oral-sex/
maybe that will help some. i can tell you that if you could get him to stop the coffee, lay off the caffeine, it will truly improve the taste. ~Blessed Be