BDSM is Love

Master and I don’t play often, not as often as I’d really like. It’s been months since he wanted to play. He says it’s because it takes so much to get me in the mood. I really don’t think that’s the case but whatever he wants to feel is fine. I have to live with it. I’m terrified that we aren’t compatible. I’ve been with him for 2 years, we are happy most of the time. We used to play a lot more in the beginning. What happened?

This is all connected to my not being very submissive all the time. He says we don’t play because I’m not in a submissive mood. He can’t discipline me because I fight it. He can’t punish me because I struggle against it. WTF! It’s human nature to do this in the beginning. I seriously doubt that all submissives are so pliable in the beginning to what is happening and the rules they have to follow. I don’t know where he gets his logic but it’s really upsetting me.

This can’t all be my problem. I’m at my wits end.

–luna