BDSM is Love

I’ve begun to experience computer problems and while Master and I are sure it’s a hardware issue, we don’t have a clue as to what hardware it could be. We can’t afford to just swap pieces out as we try to diagnose so it may be that one day my computer will just die and then I will be waiting to have a new one. Thankfully Master’s computer seems to be working just fine. I worry about it because without a computer I can’t work, and if I can’t work then I will have to go get a job outside the home, something that Master nor myself are ready to do. We are having too much fun being able to work together.
Yesterday Master and I went into the bedroom for some playful sex and he requested something of me that I never thought he’d do. Well, he asked me to masturbate for him, that’s not surprising, but he told me to orgasm 3 times in a row. It was a surprise and fun at the same time, coming for him over and over. After the 3rd one he demanded a fourth, which took a bit longer than the previous 3. My goodness I was feeling good, sweaty and exhausted.

I’m still fighting the blowjob thing. I don’t know what is wrong with me. As soon as I was done he ordered me to suck his dick and I just sank. My happy mood, my coming down from my orgasms everthing just plummeted. I can’t figure out why I am acting like this. I used to love giving oral sex. Somehow I have to get back to that, break down the walls that have been placed up and work my way back to being the naughty slut I used to be.

Money is tight again, isn’t it always? It has me worried beyond belief that we won’t be able to come up with the rent when it’s due, and while I have jobs promised me, they are far from ready for me to do anything with. I can only hope for a miracle job for Master or I.

I’m thinking of working on the Iron Gate this weekend if I don’t have work to do. I want to fix up my administration section (the part you don’t see). It’s jumbled, disorganized and some of it doesn’t work the way I want it to, other parts don’t have an admin section at all and yet still part of my site isn’t in the database at all and I think it needs to so that I can edit it faster. I’m also trying to figure out how to make Sensual-Service a bit more prominent and successful. I’m thinking of redoing the member status and allowing essay posting with moderation, instead of asking for donations of essays. I need to get new banners made for the site as well and post the site up on search engines so that people can find it.

I’m still thinking I’ll do the Blogathon next month. I might review sites or blogs or something to make it interesting and most likely my charity of choice will be the NCSF. If anyone has another lifestyle friendly charity that they’d like to suggest, let me know. I’m always open to finding out the best opportunity to raise some money for a good cause.