BDSM is Love

After the activity from yesterday my body aches and my mental self feels released. I can say that yesterday something in me clicked right and I felt myself again. No longer did I feel a shell of myself satisfying Master’s needs. I was there in the moment and I wanted to please him as best as possible.

I’ve had someone mention to me why I don’t share in detail the play that Master and I have, that it’s what draws them to reading blogs in the first place. It’s nice to know that the voyeurs have been stirred before but my main purpose of this blog is not to entertain, although I do speak to the readers on occasion, this blog is a personal account of my life, thoughts and challenges while I become the perfect submissive for my Master. Yes we play, yes we have beautiful sex together. Those moments are mine. I share what I want and what is allowed.

On that note I’ve been trying to recenter the meaning of this blog as it’s gotten off track and I’m sure Master has noticed it and said nothing. This is my journal for Master and what I write here needs to be more focused on my thoughts and feelings more often than on mindless nothingness. I hope to work towards that.

I am a blogaholic. I should join a group or something. I’m not really addicted to reading other people’s blogs, although I do spend time every other day or so to do that, I have quite a few journals that I write in personally. I have a journal for me, for private thoughts and working through personal issues that may help my submission, training that I’m going through on my own and those times I just need to rant without Master’s cross look while he reads I have this blog, which is the oldest and most important to me. It’s chronicles my life with Master, and while I regret deleting the blog I had when Master and I were online… before he moved here, I know that this blog will be strong in telling our past, present and future as a dynamic couple. I have a diet blog that I post to weekly, sometimes more. It’s more just a record of my losses and gains and my trails with eating right and exercise. I have a childhood experiences blog that I post in rather infrequently. It’s there to help me through difficult times when the past smacks me upside the head and I have to talk them out. I didn’t have a great childhood, thankfully not as bad as some that I’ve read. It’s still mine to deal with and so I have that blog for doing that. I have an IRC channel blog that I post essays that I find and other interesting things in. It’s BBW related so I do try to find bbw-centered writings. Finally I have a new blog, a fantasy blog. It’s called Luna and Sir and is short stories, thoughts, fantasies and things all from my mind. It’s helped me bring my sexual mind back and I enjoy writing. I write, I write a lot. It’s amazing I have that much time to devote to writing in blogs. It’s therapeutic.

–luna