BDSM is Love

Dated 9-17-06

Dear Master,

I’m slowly learning a lot about myself and the trigger for my current mood. I strongly believe it stems from my punishment and my disregard for my own self. When I scratched myself I can remember thinking that I wanted to hurt and make you hurt also. I abandoned who I was and became a shell. During my month long punishment, I think it began to fill with anger and uncertainty that this life was for me. I didn’t want to let it go because of my love for you. It may not appear that I’ve learned anything from that, but I know now that I can be no one if I am not your submissive.

It’s been a heard few days, and I know it’s just the tip of the iceberg for me. I have so much to work through yet. I’m grateful you are there to help me, my rock and protector, always.

–luna