BDSM is Love

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Dated: 10-21-06
Dear Master,
I am your little slut today. I am glad that I woke you this morning caressing your member and loved what followed when you fingered me to oblivion. I knew then that I wanted more today. It did honestly take me a bit to ask you to use me whenever you wanted. I [...]

Dated 10-18-06
Dear Master,
I’ve been in a mood. This mood hasn’t been out for awhile and I’ve honestly been trying to surpress it. I want to be your slut. I want to be tied and used over and over. The reason I am trying to hold it back is purely physical. My shoulder is killing me [...]

Master is disappointed in me. After 2 years of wanting a corset and drooling over them and aching for them, I have worn my new corset 3 times in a month. I still love to see it sitting there, waiting to be tied in place and the ensuing pleasure across his face when I walk [...]

I promised a little story about my birthday spanking. I had been looking forward to this and I had a new toy that Master wanted to try on my bum. In the Dieting submissive’s group I’m in, Taking-It-Off I won a wood paddle personalized to my liking. I was really excited because we have not [...]

Master gave me a beautiful card today for my birthday. I wanted to share it here.
CARD FACE
Happy Birthday to the one
I fall in love with over and over again…
I fall in love with your laugh
which is better than music
for brightening my mood,
with your frown
when you’re trying to figure me out,
with the touch of your hand
and [...]

I am submissive. I have qualities in my person and my behavior that lead me to this conclusion. As a part of my essay here, I will discuss my qualities as they are now, how I’d like them enhanced in the development and training I hope to go through. After that I want to [...]

- Pick your birth month
- Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you.
- Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under an lj-cut
I was born in…
OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. [...]

Dated: 10-15-06
Dear Master,
Ya know, today is my brother’s birthday. This is the brother I don’t really talk about but he is 29 today. Last I heard he was in prison for some type of assault. It’s not surprising. I’ve not seen him since I was 16.
I like to think that I turned out the best [...]

I can’t help but feel frustrated when Master looks at me with those lustful eyes and I sit here in pain and ache from my darn shoulder still acting up. He wants me, he wants me rough and wild and I can’t get my body to agree to that. I want him too, so very [...]

From Submissive Journal Prompts: Write out three of your favorite sexual fantasies. If this is new to you, make one up now.Writing out my sexual fantasies is to admit that I have them. I’m certain that I do but I’ve keep them pretty quiet, even to Master. I’m sure he’d entertain them. So, maybe I [...]

The weather has snapped and with it I think my health has gone. I’m feeling crummy today; not really sick but worn out, scratchy throat and a mild occasional cough. Master has been so sweet to me though, checking on me, letting me take an extra long nap even though I asked for 30 mins. [...]

This essay is a pretty old one, it was part of a punishment for not shaving… almost 3 years ago. It still is very true for me though, so I’m sharing it here. It’s making me think about how I’m following/not following the rules I have now and how I can work harder at succeeding [...]

Your Bishop
Bondage Position
Now that I have you where I want you, let’s get started with the real fun. Scream all you like, there’s no one around to hear you. I’m the only one who can help you now.
How would you be tied up?
Take the Bishop Bondage Test
(only 4 questions)

Master made a funny tonight. We were watching CI: Law and Order when the criminal said something to the tune of, “I made him mine 22 times, forever.. ” and I asked Master if we count. He retorted, “I get used more than some people use google.”
I’ve gone back into doing my diet [...]

Dated: 10-5-06
Dear Master,
You are so excited about your new computer. I am happy for you too. I do like the attention I’m getting while you wait in anticipation. You reach over and touch me, lean down to kiss me; I can’t help but think this is all a part of your excitement and it will [...]

Two years ago you walked off a plane and into my life and I am all the better because of it. I love you completely and honestly. I hope only the best for us in the future. If the past 2 years are any testament; nothing can keep us from the other.
Let the fun begin! [...]

I was in the car today and heard a song I hadn’t heard in a long while and just thought of Master and I and all romantic I’m feeling today. So… I’m sharing it here of course.
I Need You
Leann Rimes
I don’t need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life [...]

Dear Master,
This is the first letter I’ve written you that you haven’t had to read it in pen and ink first. You requested that half of my journal entries be handwritten, because they are more personal that way and the letters have developed out of that. I want you to know that these letters will [...]

Saying no. This is a difficult essay for me. I assume you wanted me to write about when I say no to sexual things. A lot of the time when I say no, it has reason behind it. The rest of the time, I realize it is excuses. How I feel about saying no is [...]

Dated: 9-24-06
Dear Master,
I told you that before I went back to online blogging I was going to write about symbols and my need for them. The loss of my collar, the only symbol I have of my submission has made me feel really lost. There is something special about ritual and symbols that bring me [...]