BDSM is Love

Dated: 10-15-06

Dear Master,

Ya know, today is my brother’s birthday. This is the brother I don’t really talk about but he is 29 today. Last I heard he was in prison for some type of assault. It’s not surprising. I’ve not seen him since I was 16.

I like to think that I turned out the best from my siblings. I don’t know if that is selfish or vain of me. I just feel that there is less negative news about me bouncing around the gossip train.

On to news I konw exists, my journal for you will be two years old this December and while I haven’t gone back to read any of the old posts, I know that our lives together are chronicled there. I hope that its an honest telling of our story.

You know I’m not feeling so hot today and I love you so much for not pushing sex on to me and for respecting my boundaries. Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow. God I hope so.

Anal sex yesterday was so nice. Its been awhile for it and honestly I had been thinking about it for some time. I know you have wanted to get more anal training by way of butt plug wear. I have been nervous. Not quite sure why. Maybe more because we just can’t seem to keep the darn thing in. I’m thinking we may need to fork out a bit of money for a jeweled one like I’ve seen that has a really narrow neck an egg shaped plug. Set us back like $80.

Again, I’m nervous about money. We never seem to have extra around here. It’s crazy. Why is it always a struggle?

–luna