BDSM is Love

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If you’ve followed my diet journal you know that for the past 6 months I’ve been struggling to get below 302. I’m really stuck and have been at a loss for what to do to help me get going again. I brought these concerns to Master just over 2 weeks ago because even though it’s [...]

I’ll never understand why my libido waxes and wanes so aggressively. Just last week I was insatiable, to the point that my sex was throbbing and aching and I was begging to be left alone. Now I’m even anti touching unless it’s a hug or a kiss. I just can’t explain it. I’m really disturbed [...]

I hope everyone’s Thanksgiving went well. Master and I spent a nice day at home with no work, no stress (other than my usual cooking stress) and it was great. It would have been better had my pussy not still been sore from 3 days ago when Master and I went all out with so [...]

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Enjoy

Gratitude. I see it in Gratitude Tuesdays on blogs all over the web. I see it in cards and stories this time of year. Sadly, I rarely see it throughout the year; some reason it’s only now, when it’s “scheduled” or “planned”. I’ve been reflecting lately on what I’m grateful for and how I can [...]

This Week’s Picks
To Tell or Not to Tell… (http://lipstickexplosion.com)
“Jane Falling claims it’s best not to tell, and she writes, ‘my identity as a prostitute is too serious a secret to trust with near-strangers.’”
Anti-Anti-Pornography, Part II (http://www.teen-porn-site.com/blog)
“One question I would like to ask them is - were there any rape or child abuse cases *before* the [...]

I could never love another,
As I do my Master today.
I could never hold one so close to my heart,
Than my Love, my God and my King.
He is my world, my everlasting;
My strength, my hope, my future.
Without him my life crumbles to dust.
This affirmation of my soul sings praises
To all that would listen, to all that [...]

Flogging. It’s a play activity that I take to like a fish to water. I love the feeling of it, the pure sensation, the rhythm of the falls, the sound of leather or rubber against flesh. It’s so erotic to me and lets me relax and ease myself into that sweet space I love so [...]

Dated: 11-08-06
Dear Master,
The BDSM presentation went quite well today. I’m always so glad to have you there as my support and cheering section. Thank you for being up early and coming with me.
We always enjoy talking with B. and this morning was no exception. There is so much I learn and pick up from her. [...]

“Care for a little side adventure, Master?” I asked on our way home from the munch.
It was dark and the ride was long. I had just purchased a red sexy nightie and it was driving Master wild the thought of me wearing it when we got home. He would grab my hand and place it [...]

A number of blogs that I have read recently have mentioned or have delved into the thought that submissives are high maintenance, or that they themselves are high maintenance. What has me thinking is that 1. I am high maintenance and Master has said so 2. I don’t find that to be damaging or destructive [...]

Dated 11-3-06
Dear Master,
Last night was really hard on me. I’ve been stressing about a lot of things lately and disappointing you yet again really hurt. I’ve got so many problems with giving you blowjobs; some of which I’m still realizing. My mind freezes when you ask me to suck your off. I have some hesitation [...]

I’d like to thank Mija for making me this beautiful template and being so patient with me when I was acting like a giddy schoolgirl. It’s absolutely beautiful and better than anything I can imagine. I’m sure I’ll get good use out of it The angel image is from the BBW Pin-up Gallery of [...]

More to come later. I’m out to lunch.

I’ve been battling with the question of self worth today. It’s caused me to depressed off and on all day long. Master can’t seem to understand why I have this thought in my head that if I’m not productive that I won’t be worth anything. I was raised that productivity pretty much decided if you [...]

Your Life Is Worth…

$450,500

How Much Is Your Life Worth?

Dated 10-30-06
Dear Master,
I did a lot of thinking today on my way to work. I thought about how much my life has changed since you entered my world. I believe it’s all for the good. I’m a better me.
I’m not as bossy as I once was. Now someday I hope I realize that bossiness is [...]

A routine is another step towards the life that I see myself in as your submissive. I crave structure and order and while I’m terrible at doing this for myself, I feel that I can do it for you. I will extend myself to following a routine to please you and improve myself. I want [...]

I’m waiting for a new blog template. The precious and talented Mija is making me one all special. I’m giddy with excitement! When I get it I will change my blog immediately and then I doubt I will change it for a long while to come. She told me it should be done soon [...]

There have always been times I wished I could stay in bed and not do anything for the day. Today is one of those days. I’m cranky, bloated, cramping…
So I’m posting another Letter to Master. If you haven’t been following, I write hand written letters to Master on days that I don’t post here. If [...]