Days like this…
There have always been times I wished I could stay in bed and not do anything for the day. Today is one of those days. I’m cranky, bloated, cramping…
So I’m posting another Letter to Master. If you haven’t been following, I write hand written letters to Master on days that I don’t post here. If they are okay to share, he lets me share them. I hope you enjoy this very intimate side of our relationship.
Dated: 10-27-06
Dear Master,
I have a writing assignment due tomorrow and while it looks like I haven’t done anything on it, I’ve been putting a lot of thought into it because it will affect my life completely. Whatever you decide as a part of my rules and schedule will change how I do/don’t do things now. It’s kinda a scary thought. I hope my writing assignment is good for you.
I’m sorry for complaining so much about my diet struggles. I don’t mean to be annoying and I know I have others for support in this. Now, I also realize that if I don’t eat right or exercise every single day that I will not loose weight. It’s my issue.
I’m feeling different Master. I feel more peaceful. I feel a bit more aware of you and your needs. I’m not quite sure how to get me furter into my role, but I’m willing to try anything. This restructuring of my rules and routine may do that.
–luna
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Hi Luna, found your link through my friends llama and cva-me. I love what I’ve read so far, you and I have a lot(!!!) in common. I totally understand your struggle against needing rules and structure while at the same time not wanting them completely. It’s a hard balance. Oh and also your post about your corset rang a gong in my head too as I spent wayyyyyyy too much money on a beautiful one a couple of months ago and it’s languished in a drawer except for perhaps three or four times becuase of exactly the same reason you mentioned. . . .weight issues specifically too much weight spilling out the sides. . yuck.
Anyway, from one kindred subbie to another. . . shalom.