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Since Saturday I have felt like I am living a different life. I’d like to attribute it to the newness of my reinstated collar, the preparation for new rules and behaviors and the very close decision of full time employment with my current employer. I’m really being a good girl I think. Master said the [...]

Dated: January 29, 2007
This is one day late. I have no excuse, I can only hope for your leniency. I didn’t even think about doing it. Opps!
I’ve been feeling really loved the past couple of days. You really did surprise me. In fact, I thought that when I discussed my break in trust during play [...]

First I want to say thank you to all the wonderful readers out there that congratulated Master and myself for the renewed collaring. We both greatly appreciate it and while I’d love to thank each and every one of you individually; there just isn’t enough time in the day. Thank you so much, from the [...]

“I want you to promise that you will try to be as good as you were today, everyday.”
“I promise I will try to be good everyday Master.”
Master has honored me today, I have honored him. He was full of pride for me, I’ve been good. He told me that I have changed and I’m not [...]

I’m on to the next book of the year, Memnoch the Devil. If you haven’t noticed it’s an Anne Rice marathon. I’ve got all the Vampire Chronicles. Then I will most likely move onto the Harry Potter series. Who knows what comes after that. I’m really happy to be reading again. It feel so good.
I’m [...]

Master’s mother sent me a belated Christmas gift. She has never met me and didn’t know about me until after Master was here with me. I got a ruby and diamond ring. It’s simply beautiful.
His sister asked him on IM if he was going to marry me. Gosh we’ve not even gotten that far, besides [...]

As I noted in a previous entry, I am done with a website that has taken up my time for over 4 months. Now that I am not doing anything after work in the morning I have developed some rather troublesome symptoms.
I’m snappy with Master, I’m irritated at the slightest things, I’m bored, I have [...]

Things are going well in Master’s house. We’ve been working through my issues that occurred this weekend and the feelings I have, the feelings I don’t have and the continuous issue with trust. I’ve done a lot of thought on it myself since this past weekend and what I can say now is that I [...]

If you haven’t poked around my Iron Gate blog lately I’d like to show you the two other templates I made. They aren’t nearly as fancy as the one Mija made for me and I absolutely love this one! I’ve been playing with CSS and tableless layouts. It’s just basic and a start, but I [...]

Yesterday was a day from hell and a clawing my way back up to life here on earth. Master and I had plans to play. No different than any other time. Those of you that read my blog regularly know that sometimes we just don’t get to it, other times we have our problems. This [...]

There’s really no change in my life right now. I’m at a point now that either something drastic will change or I will scream at the top of my lungs just to shatter the silence my life has brought out. I’m still waiting to hear about possible contract changes to bring me to full time [...]

It’s no wonder I take forever to lose weight. I’ve not done a single minute of exercise in 5 days. I just procrastinate big time and then what… I do nothing. I blame it on not having enough time (which is false) and well I need to stop. It has to stop. I want to [...]

I am done with the website project that took me 4 months. Ugh. It was huge, the client was a major pain, but I am done and he’s taken it upon himself to install it himself since he can’t wait a day for me to get to it. *sigh* The impatience of some clients. I [...]

Master and I have gone a long time between play sessions. Generally it’s because we can’t seem to be in the mood at the same time, can’t find the free time for each other or don’t want to put that much effort into it. It’s all excuses really. Well today was a day to try [...]

I got news today that I will be starting work full time on a trial basis before the end of this month. I can’t wait! This is the news I have been anticipating for 2 months now, finally just one more hurdle and it will happen. Thank goodness! With the added hours will come more [...]

From Submissive Journal Prompts: How do you see yourself in one year? Five years? Ten years? Why do you see yourself that way?
In one year I see myself as successfully loosing some weight. I’ll feel happier and healthier. I also hope to see myself moving closer to the submissive that I want to be. I [...]