BDSM is Love

So…

It’s been one month since I set my resolutions. How am I doing you wonder? I’ve got the update. It’s not that great really, but there’s always progress to be made, ya know?
The Personal Growth resolutions:

• Brushing my teeth isn’t going well. I do about twice a week *sigh* How gross I know. This month I hope to make it to 4 times a week.
• The bedtime routine is written up, but nonexistent anywhere else. I’d like to get the beauty part of that routine into practice this month.
• I do manage my hair more than I used to. I did go to work today though with my hair in a ponytail because I was too lazy to wash it.
• Diet and exercise is still struggling. I’ve not had a regular week of exercise but the diet is pretty good. It could be better and I foresee it doing better this month.

Submission Goals:

• My speech with Master is a lot better! I’m saying please and thank you more than I have ever. I am finding myself snapping a bit, but corrects me pretty quickly. The slang speech has not been worked on at all.
• I feel that I’m more available sexually and I know that Master has appreciated the non-hesitance when he suggests a blowjob or handjob. I’m working on being sexually hungry all the time. I’m sure that when Master initiates the butt plug training I’ll feel more sexual energy. (We were supposed to start today, but I’m feeling a bit irritated from after my period and I think I may have scratched my anus during a vigorous cleaning. He’s giving me time to heal a bit.)
• Finding my submission during times of stress and bad moods is still at a loss. I don’t even know where to start.

General Goals:

• Cleaning… 30 mins everyday? Nope, I am doing all the cleaning on the weekend still. The dishes are piling up and its embarrassing to even think of people coming over. I really need to step it up.
• I do plan my meals out before going grocery shopping and try to stick to it as best as possible. I have noticed that with a meal plan we are less likely to eat out at the last moment because we don’t know what to eat.
• Do more of the things I enjoy that don’t have to do with the computer. I am on the 5th book of the year and I love it! I hope to start doing more after my other goals settle in.

So, that’s my month update on the resolutions. Obviously I’m not working so hard at them and with new rules pending from the acceptance of Master’s collar I need to try to stop being so lazy. To help with that Master tells me daily what chores he wants me to accomplish. It melds right into my to do list mentality. I always live on lists. This will help me stay on task… hopefully.

Master has a special necklace on his watch list. He wants to get it when the money arrives in our PayPal account that I sent there today. I’m awfully giddy because if he purchases it, that means a permanent public collar that won’t turn my neck black like the decaying leather one I have now. If he buys it I’ll share a picture. I don’t want to jinx it.

To do this weekend:

1. Journal Prompts for February
2. Essay for Master
3. Dishes
4. Clean Bathroom
5. Pick up living room
6. Make beef stew
7. Work on personal websites
8. Read book (Memnoch the Devil)