BDSM is Love

I’m still waiting. Waiting to hear if the client of my work contract wants to up my hours to full time. They had a meeting today where this was a key part of the conversation. My boss has not called me, it’s late and I don’t think I’ll hear anything until Monday. This is torture. I really hate waiting. It drives my mind into thinking all the negative things. It produces those what if’s that corrupt your positive energy. I wish I’d just find out already!

On another note, Master got confirmation that they shipped my new collar today and it should arrive sometime between 2-14 and 2-24. Yay! I’m really excited to wear it, feel it and know that Master locked it around my throat. Another thing I’m waiting for!

Tomorrow is munch with the local group. They are having a topic on protocol and Master and I are really looking forward to it. I have to remember to bring some money too so that we can put in for the raffle of a wax play kit I know Master and I can enjoy that!

I’m hoping that Master will allow some more small play this weekend. I’d love to show him that I’m still working on the trust within play/scene and that I want to please him in all areas of his life.

I’ve started reworking my submissive code of ethics on Luna’s Lessons. (LJ readers have already seen it.) I’m hoping I can come up with a decent working version of it after I’m done with this week’s essay. Boy is it a hard one too! Well worth the thought I’m putting into it. Master sure likes to make his girl think.

Any ideas for essays or sections of my handbook that would help me find more of my submssive self, or something I should make sure to pay attention to? (I’d also really like some domestic submissive tips… I’m terrible at making cleaning submissive at all. It’s still just a crummy chore.)

From Submissive Journal Prompts: “We do not write because we want to; we write because we have to.” — W. Somerset Maugham

I just wanted to say that this is a two-fold quote. One because I have a rule that I must write and so I do. The other is because if I don’t write I feel that I can’t express myself. Master has learned that writing helps me form my thoughts and expressions where speaking couldn’t. I need to write, it’s in me, it’s overpowering somedays and the ability to create anything with words is a gift that I hope never leaves me. I write and the writing is me.

–luna