BDSM is Love

Since my recollaring Master and I have played several times, our relationship is stronger than ever and the future is bright and happy. I have looked from the past to the future and I can declare that the state of our love is good! How cheesy is that?!

Valentine’s Day may be a day set aside for commercialism but it is also a day to remind us all that love lives every day of the year. I celebrate my Valentine every single day that I honor his collar. I am his and proud to earn his love and commitment.

Today marks the ‘window’ for his new collar to arrive. I can’t wait! I’m still really nervous about the locking of it around my neck. It’s so final, so permanant and somewhat of a scary thing. It’s an honor to know that he wants me for life but also so scary. I don’t think I even considered my ex-marriage this heavily. It was something I always felt that I could back out of. This lock feels more solid than that and it could be just that I feel more embraced by him and his love that I feel this way. Perhaps it could also be because I am so peaceful in my position with him and that I know he’s the perfect match for me. I could do no better than his love.

Today Master and I played with the hot wax again. It is such a wonderful experience and I know that this is one of his favorite activities to do with me. It’s so sensual and erotic and intense! He’s getting so good at his dominance in session, so controled and aware. It’s beautiful and wonderful and I can finally begin to relax.

If only I could have relaxed today…. my darned needy cat cried for almost the entire time we were in the bedroom and oh my goodness did it break my head space. I was so angry with him that I have yet to even acknowledge that he’s in the same room as me. *scowl*

I am also going to give Master a sponge bath and a blowjob later. He promises some hard sex too OH, and my favorite… cuddling. Ah, now this is a wonderful day to be his girl.

Happy Valentine’s Day everyone!

–luna