BDSM is Love

I have had someone ask me a question, so I thought I’d answer in a post. Especially since I think this is going to take some thought.

How did you know that he was the one for you?

Well the simple answer is, “I didn’t.” There were a lot of cues that we were similar and had a lot of good things going on. We were online friends first. You can read how we met on this blog, here. We talked and knew each other for almost a year before we decided to take it to the next step.

When he arrived here and I welcomed him into my life I came with a lot of baggage. Part of me thought that he wouldn’t accept it and I would have to try my hardest to purge my past. In the beginning that was the case. He’s more accepting now; probably because he knows I’m not going anywhere. He’s given me a lot of reasons to know that he doesn’t plan on taking off any time soon.

We are great together. We rarely argue, haven’t fought really and we can be independent and still depend on each other. Our lives seem to work so well within this house I don’t think I could ask for better. He is my dream mate. And if I don’t say it enough, “Master, I love you.”

But the truth is…. I thought my ex husband was the one a long time ago too. I could have sworn it if you had asked then. If I think too hard about if I think Master is the one now, I have a hesitancy to say yes. I think it’s mainly because I don’t want to break what we have going. I am afraid to open my heart to the possibility that he’s the one or that he might not be.

Only time will tell if he really is the one for me. I know that I want him to be the one, I need him to be the one; I just can’t let myself accept it. I love him so completely. It has to be all that there is. Nothing about soul mates, or only one partner… just the here and now and right now, I’m his forever, truly and completely. Owned.

–luna