BDSM is Love

Next month begins a few challenges for me. First I want to get back into keeping my food diary on Fitday.com. I think it will help me keep on track with my diet. It will make me more accountable and aware of what I’m eating now that I’m working full time. Perhaps I’m not making the calorie requirement, and I know that when I do eat it’s all at the end of the day; which can’t be too healthy. Secondly, I want to push my bedtime back to 10pm and get up at 5am. This will most likely be a very difficult process. I’m tired of being tired all the time. Hopefully this will give me more time with Master in the evening and afford me the same amount of sleep that I’ve been needing. Lastly I want to get into the habit of cleaning a little every day. Right now I can’t say the last time I did some cleaning other than picking up here and there and an occasional load of dishes. I really need to change that.

I’m also hoping to get to know more of the readers of this blog. There is no real way to encourage commenting, but I would like to be able to get a glimpse into the life of those who follow mine. I’ve made comments to Master recently that my friends list on Yahoo is really short and those that are there have been there a very long time. I have no new friends and I’m aching for them. Even if it’s emailing from time to time or chatting on occasion. I’d love to get to know some of you.

I have an essay to write this week. It’s an uncomfortable one. About 2 months ago I expressed to Master a curiosity of mine in experiencing being urinated on. I’m not really sure why the curiosity came about but Master wants me to think about it and then write a little something about why I may be interested in it and how I envision it happening as well as how it may affect me. So, I’m asking you, dear readers for some of your opinions on it. Whether you’ve tried it, do it all the time, or never I’d like to know what you think about pee play of any sort. My curiosity has been spiked.

I’m almost done with Kushiel’s Dart trilogy and have a decision to make on the next book to read. I have the Harry Potter series I could read again in anticipation for the next and final book coming out this summer or I could read the treasure trove of classics my father has given me over the course of a few years. I’m sure it will be a last minute decision or a whim that decides what I read. I guess I’ll have to wait and see. I really do love that I’ve gotten into reading so much. I know that when the cable comes back on I will go back to that; hopefully doing cross stitch instead as I love that when I watch tv. Combat idleness with creativity.

I can’t even think of how this next conversation started but Master asked me if I had a coloring book. I do of course. Barbie. I love to color the barbies and add make-up to their faces, polish to the nails and enhance the dresses and stuff. I’ve not colored in a very long time. I just don’t have any crayons. I love the 64 pack so that I have every shade I could possibly imagine. Maybe I’ll have to get a new pack someday soon. I smiled at Master and told him I’d color a page for him and write “I love you Master” on it, asking him to hang it by his desk I’m silly but I know he’d do it. Coloring just has a peaceful healing feeling to it, it’s hard to explain unless you do it too. Who else colors?

–luna