BDSM is Love

Dear Master,

We just finished having a bit of fun and I guess I do have to admit that I am beginning to like blow jobs with you. I have to keep focused on your sounds and reactions and it becomes about giving you more pleasure and not fussing over my discomfort. I am happy to hear that you find I am getting better at sucking you and I am going to continue to learn from you what you like best.

The first spiritual blow job you got gave me some insights into how I want to perform them in the future. I’d like to get the candles out and find music I can almost meditate to so that my focus is completely on the event of worshiping you. I hope to set up another one next weekend.

I can’t wait for my period to be finished! I’m so very horny and the hands off time frame during my period is boring and frustrating. I really hope you have plans to help me get out of the ravaging need to fuck everything and anything, to come over and over and be a voracious slut. *winks* Of course you do! I know you desire to tie me up and use me. I want you to do that, I really do.

I have to thank you Master for asking me to write about my thoughts on golden showers. They have really helped me just sort out some things and maybe figure out how or when it might come to happen if you choose to try it with me. I’m grateful for the comments I’ve gotten so far and from what I can pick up it’s a healthy thought and perhaps I’ll get more from it than I think I will. I would like to know what your thoughts are on the subject other than your will to try it once to see what it’s like.

I’d like to set up some goals for this month that I would request you help me stay focused on, if you could. One is a later bedtime. I’d like to go to bed at 10pm instead of 9:30. I don’t have to get up until 5am now that the weather is nicer I can leave a little later (6:15am). My other goal is to brush my teeth every single day, hopefully in the morning and bathe every night. It will be nice to get into a routine of some sort and it will be a stepping off point for even more organized living. I think I’ve adjusted well with my new work routine to be able to start this. What I’d like from you are just little verbal reminders off and on through the week to try to keep me going. Is that okay?

As you know I’m also getting back into working on my food diary because I think I can get back into watching what I eat. The first thing I need to do is make sure I know what I’m eating. I really really want to get back into walking at night when the weather is decent for it. Maybe we can walk together. I know I’ve turned you down recently but now it’s time to get my ass moving. I’ve got goals and they aren’t going anywhere as long as I don’t do anything to reach them.

Love,

me