First Playtime Thoughts
Thursday Question Response: What was your first playtime/scene like? Don’t give a point by point, share the feelings, emotions and inner thoughts.
My first play session was spur of the moment, very reckless on my part and well, I think a form of desperation too. I felt that if I let this guy get into his truck I’d never get to know what playing felt like or if I was even going to like it.
I was so very nervous, I didn’t know what was expected of me and I felt that jell-o stomach feeling. The guy was very gentlemanly and eased my nerves quite a bit and I had a lot of fun.
When it was all over I felt sedated and very happy. I knew that from now on I would be looking for a long time relationship that had SM play in it. I didn’t know the first thing about safety really.
Well, no, that’s wrong. I had a safe call set up for this ‘date’. I didn’t have a safeword but I insisted that there be no bondage or gags so that I could fight if needed. (as if he couldn’t overpower me, but it made me feel secure nonetheless)
Since then I’ve done some stupid things in my time; things my Master shakes his head over and swears he doesn’t know why I subjected myself to the abuse that I did get into for awhile. I really can’t explain it either and maybe I don’t want to. Not yet.
–luna
I'm luna, KnyghtMare's submissive since 2004. I'm a BBW with brown hair and blue eyes. I've been married, separated, almost divorced now; living with my Master.
Master placed his permanent collar on me January 27, 2006. I'm learning and growing into the perfect submissive for him. I'm changing my behaviors, my attitude and my thought processes to become a better person.
This is an adult blog. If you get offended to talk of sex, sexuality and BDSM, please turn back now.
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