BDSM is Love

Thank you so very much for all the wonderful comments on my last post about blow jobs. It has helped me immensely with my thinking process. Anyone who knows how to reprogram a behavior knows that the thought process comes first. I’m working right now on changing what I think of blow jobs, how I react to them and perhaps I’ll call them something else too.

I’ve been thinking that it really should be something akin to worship for me to find the pleasure in it and hopefully for him to get what he wants out of it too. It’s going to be a very long road. I am completely missing the D/s dynamic of oral sex, as Fyre said.

Sometimes I have been able to give him a blow job and absolutely enjoy it; other times I just think it is part of what I have to do. Slap me upside the head with a 2×4 really. Blow jobs have never been easy for me, but they aren’t something that I would ever make a limit. I know this is some training that can take shape and will change the way I see sex in general. It can be done.

I’m so happy to hear that some of you had or are having some of the same problems when it comes to this. Even though I know I’m not alone it’s a great encouragement to know I’m just like many others out there.

katie brought up something that I had shared with Master over the weekend. She feels more intimately connected when her owner touches her during oral sex. I had said to Master the very same thing. If it was to be a connection I wanted more than lips on dick. I wanted touching from both sides. I think we can make that work wonders.

I have to give Master a blowjob tonight. I guess we’ll see how it all goes.

–luna