BDSM is Love

I swear that if I weren’t so young I would think I’m entering ‘the change’. My moods have been all over the place this week and it’s driving me and Master nuts! Yesterday after a very successful and fun blow job (yup!) I crashed. I crashed big time. I’m stressed about my weight and the fact that I’m not trying hard enough. Yeah, they go hand in hand. I have terrible views of my body and that gets in the way of a lot of things that Master loves. He hates that I talk myself down and he constantly reminds me that I’m beautiful to him. I believe him, I really do but I’m not beautiful to myself so it isn’t making much of a difference.

I used to have a better view of myself. I’m not sure where it went. I want it back.

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Master and I had a nice pain play session tonight. Master said that it was just what the Dr. ordered. I’m hoping it will help my moods be more constant. It was a wonderful session though once I let myself go. He has been looking at the list of kaya’s videos she has for sale and commented today that some of the things looked like fun. I don’t know what I’m in for but I can thank kaya for it

Master wants to do a rope cage the next time we do some bondage. It looks like something I will really like if he can make it restrictive enough. Most likely he will be posting pictures on his blog so stay tuned there. I know he likes showing his handiwork as he learns the ropes, so to speak.

–luna