BDSM is Love

Dear Master,

Not to seem too self centered but I think I did pretty good this week. I hope I can continue on this journey this week. I’ve been a lot more concious of what is going on around you and when you need attention. Right now I know it almost always seems like it is ‘coffee’ service, but I’ll get better I’m so very glad to please you with blow jobs that in the past have been really hard on me. Thank you so much for being patient and allowing me time to process all that I need to make them so special and a lot more satisfying for both of us. They can only get better from here.

I’m so glad we were able to play during the week and that rope cage seems very useful in our play. I hope to enjoy more play during the week. It’s great. I felt all spacey and wonderful. I loved the spanking too. You are right that I probably could have gone further but I was feeling rather weak and floaty. I knew you wanted a blow job too and that just isn’t possible for me in a floaty state. Thank you for stopping (as if you would pass up a blow job for floaty subbie).

I’m going to try to get my assignment done this week. It’s really a hard thing to write about mainly because I know that means more rules or rituals in my future and I’m nervous about letting you down. Maybe we can talk about the assignment after I have it written? Maybe you can give me ideas of what you want to do to enhance what we do already?

You want me to think about how I’ve changed as a submissive since you’ve been in my life but really that would be like rereading my entire journal. You know exactly how I’ve changed and how you want me to change in the future. I love that I have turned into someone you can be proud of. I really am happy that I’ve changed for the better. I’m more polite and mindful of what I’m doing, I am respectful of service personnel and can remember exactly how you like your food to order it correctly. I’m becoming your little slut in bed, which I know you love and I love, and I will be your tied and beaten subbie any day of the week. I am truly a changed person.

I love you so much Master. In just a few weeks we will be celebrating 3 years together. We’ve just scratched the surface of what our relationship can be and we know each other so very well. I can’t wait to make the next step into a larger apartment, a new phase of being and administration of a local group. All of this is our future Master and we can make it so fantastic, working together.

–me