Weight Loss: Week 3 in Review
I’m having problems with my diet program. Part of it is my fault but I really do think the other part is out of my control. First, I’m just not exercising when I have time. I like to put it off. and off. and off. Now I know that my eating is a lot better. It can be better still, but if I don’t exercise I know that it won’t work at all. I don’t know how to motivate myself to exercise. Master was upping the cane strokes if I skipped it, but I’m at the point that I don’t care how many strokes I get, I don’t want to exercise. I can’t believe I’d take the cane over just exercising for 30 mins. God I’m lazy.
Second, I keep feeling that I have no time available. Some days that’s true, but on the average I know I have 30 mins to do exercise. What in the world is stopping me other than being lazy? Why can’t I take Master’s direction and just do it? Why don’t I want this bad enough?
It’s all questions I don’t have answers for. I’ve been trying to lose weight for such a long time that I think I just hate it now. But I have so very far to go yet. And maybe that is frustrating me as well. I have small goals to try to take steps. Just 10% at a time. Getting to 300 is the first 10%. I can still get there by the end of the year if I dig deep and find that part of me that will exercise. I want to succeed so I have to try to stop self-destroying it.
On the up side, I weighed in at 310 on Sunday. I don’t feel that it will stick but that puts me just 10 lbs by the new year. I can do it if I try hard and stick to things. I’ve got to get back into the habit of having a salad for a meal everyday. Get those healthy veggies into my diet. I’ve got to get up from my chair at work more often even if it’s just to walk around the building. I need to stop listening to the self-defeating talk.
I can do this, I can do this. I will do this someday.
–luna
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Like you, i hate exercise: the way i’ve found is to try to do something else that makes you do the exercise. For example.. we have a dog, and obviously she needs walking (something i am very bad at doing, its usually Master that does it). The last couple weeks though, i have been taking photographs of the trees around here, from the same 4 spots, the same 4 views, so that i can put them together to create something like a movie of how Autumn progresses. And of course, that requires that you get out there pretty much everyday to take the photos.. and walk the dog!
I think you have to know your own lifestyle but something like not allowing yourself to do/have something until you’ve done the exercise. Frankly, even if its some food you really want (like chocolate), if you have just a *small* piece of really good chocolate as a reward for the exercise then it will do more good than harm kinda thing.
I think as well, when you’ve been overweight for a long time, and when you are very overweight (so that it takes a long time to lose, even if you are religiously good and exercise faithfully every day or something like that, it still takes time), its very easy for apathy/depression around the weight issues to set in, to feel that you’re never gonna lose the weight so why bother? i know i feel that sometimes.
you have to hang in there - you can do this!
keth
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I’ve read that you have to do something 5 time before it becomes a habit. I actually believe that you have to do it a lot more than that, but it’s good to remember. Maybe start by working out 5 days in a row–no days off–so that you feel a bit more motivated to work out on the 6th day.
I agree with Keth’s suggestion about forcing yourself to do things that include exercise. How do you get to work? Could you get on or off the bus/train at a stop a mile away, and force yourself to walk the rest of the way? Or park a mile away from the office? (Or do what Kaya/Under His Hand’s Master is doing…he’s dropping her off a couple miles from home and forcing her to walk home!) How much time do you get for your lunch break? Maybe make a pledge to yourself: Eat a smaller lunch (bonus: fewer calories) and then walk for the remaining time left in your break. Or, ask your Master to go for a walk with you after dinner each night. If he’s involved, maybe it will motivate him. Or, join a gym. If you’re paying the dues, maybe you’ll be more motivated to work out. (My local park district offers classes, so I take those. They’re inexpensive, but they give me motivation because I don’t want to miss one that I’ve already paid for.)
At times I definitely suffer motivational problems, but it’s a lot easier once I get into the habit of working out (and see the benefits!)
Good luck!
luna- i found your blog through 24.7 and like you i have been writing a lot about my weight loss and struggle with foods and binging.
check out my blog if you have the time….
i will be sending you the best of thoughts from now on and continually checking in on your progress. i don’t think i can offer much advicec on motivation to exercise. i jog but i started walking but i enjoyed the jogging almost immediately.
your Dom might be able to help but the desire really needs to come internally. perhaps instead of punishment you get rewarded for exercising? perhaps an orgasm for thirty minutes? perhaps a new outfit for ten pounds etc? i find rewards work better for me than the threat of my Dom (or any Dom) threatening to punish me…. partly because punishment can make me feel ashamed and when i feel ashamed i more inclined to self-medicate with food rather than be proactive.
i hope that helps.
kethry,
You have some excellent ideas that I have yet to try. I may have to employ some of them.
Jen,
I can’t imagine working out 5 days in a row! That’s going to take an act of God. Maybe if I incorporate some of kethry’s ideas I can work up to yours
Melissa,
Welcome to my blog! I agree that punishment just wasn’t working out. If I do rewards I’m going to have a hard time making sure I only get it when rewarded. Since this diet is self-controlled, Master will only do so much.
I have to want this and I really do. It’s just the way I’m going about it has to change. I love these ideas and will take some of them into my own routine. Hopefully they will work out.
Hi Luna,
I guess it depends on how you define a workout. If a workout is something that requires you to change into shorts and a t-shirt, pack up your iPod and bottle of water, stretch before you start and then get soaking in sweat by the time you’re done, that may seem intimidating. But if you think of it as, "Hey, let’s throw on some walking shoes and walk to the grocery store instead of taking the car," it may be a lot easier to stomach.
Jen
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"I don’t care how many strokes I get, I don’t want to exercise. I can’t believe I’d take the cane over just exercising for 30 mins. God I’m lazy."
Luna, that made me giggle because its so me! Just beat the hell out of me with the cane, doesn’t that burn calories?! lol
Eden