BDSM is Love

I’ve been a bit down in the dumps the past few days, I’ve not been sleeping well and I’ve not been able to server Master as he would wish me to. I’m hoping that this is related to my depressive state, the weather or my current workload. I don’t want to be sick! I’ve had a writing block and would rather just post a boobies picture and call that a post, but I know he wouldn’t allow that. Sooo…..

Master selected a topic for me to write about tonight after I told him that I didn’t know what to write about today. So, here’s his suggestion:

How do you see your submission changing in 1 year, 5 years, 10 years?

Piece of cake, right? Not so much but I’ll give it a try.

1 year: My submission to Master will come easier, I’ll be really darn good to almost perfect on the current rules and behaviors I’m supposed to be working on right now. Maybe I’ll have more on my list that he’s been waiting to add. I hope to be better at being able to wear a butt plug; barring the stomach troubles that seem to plague me when our food isn’t exactly healthy. I hope to be more sexually active with Master and more eager to please more often. Maybe I’ll be lucky and have lost some weight too so that my activity level, body image and overall outlook improves.

5 years: My submission will continue to become easier. My rules will become ingrained in me as my normal way of living. By this time I would like to have my sexual submission completely straightened out and allow myself to give myself over freely and be available for all of his sexual urges. I want to have enhanced my service aspect and really dug into the domestic services that I could be providing Master. If we have the money rolling in I’d like to go to part time work so that I could serve Master at home more often and find that spark for a live in slavery I’ve been only thinking about. I’d like to have made it down to my preferred weight so that my service is more appealing and my lifestyle is healthier.

10 years: My hope at 10 years is that my submission is second nature. My thoughts would no longer be my own and there would be no hesitation when asked to do something. I want to be able to anticipate Master’s needs and fulfill his every desire. I’d like to snuff out the procrastination in me and utilize my lists habit positively. I’d love to manage working from home on the websites that Master and I have planned or dreamed up. Some of which we’d be making money from.

Thank you Master for giving me something to think about today. It’s been a huge help on a day that I didn’t know what to say.

–luna