What crawled up my butt?
I’m instantly grumpy when Master asks me to wear a butt plug for awhile. I really hate wearing butt plugs just because. I’m fine with them during scene or during sex but just hate they way the feel when they are just sitting there, invading me. Making me feel icky and like I need to poo all the time. I don’t know what I’m supposed to get out of it; if anything.
So I snapped at him and now I have to write about what’s got me in a bunch… and of course it has to be my inability to submit all the time, especially when butt plug is mentioned. I don’t think I will ever like that thing. I’m procrastinating and I’m hoping that he’ll think of some other torture to put me under.
I was doing so well. I got some spanking and I got some sex earlier. He even let me sleep off an after sex headache. Now I’m just crabby and it was like the flick of a switch. “I want you to try to wear the butt plug tonight.” What?! Crap, no.. ugh. I don’t wanna.
I feel like a full fledged tantrum ( and I haven’t done that in years! ). I can’t explain it.
–luna
Boy am I childish today! Wow.
thisgirl
bahar
Beth
baby
When I picked out what I wanted in the living room, I went...
Being sub all the time is very difficult. Master and I often have the same sorts of arguments over the same sort of things.
The key is, Master needs to know when you need a tantrum because things have just gotten to be too much and when you need to be whipped back into shape. And that can be hard.
So it’s important to be in touch with where you’re at so that you can give him the appropriate clues.
luna replied on December 8th, 2007 11:25 am:
I’ve never thought about the need for a tantrum, I guess I always figured I was too old to do the whole foot stamping, arm crossed pout that I sure felt like doing.
We will have to talk about how to handle when I need to vent like that so that it doesn’t get me in trouble next time.
Thanks!
wow, i hate them too. i don’t have to wear mine very often, but every once in a while it is threatened. if i was already feeling a little bit crabby, then being told to wear the plug would put me tantrum-ready too.