BDSM is Love

My blog is 3 years old today (well, yesterday). I can’t believe I’m still going strong and have things to say. It’s been a huge part of my submission development and growth as a person for Master. It was started when we got together and it’s had ups and downs just like I have. Please allow me to re-introduce myself.

I’m now 30, living in my first real D/s relationship. I’m learning and growing as a submissive, pleasing Master whenever I get the chance and finding challenges and turmoil within myself at every turn. We live in small town Iowa where Master freelances web development and I work in an office environment.

A regular day for me is getting up at the butt crack of dawn to go to work, come home and love my Master for the 6 or so hours I have before I go to bed to do it all over again. I fill my free time with housework, website work and blogging. Of these I have at least 4 websites that I’m always working on and nearly that many blogs. A few of which have gone defunct but not out of a lack of desire. Time is always the greatest factor. You can find all these sites in the sidebar.

I began getting curious about my sexual desires during my marriage where they were never entertained. The first time I was spanked it was a spur of the moment during sex and he didn’t want to do it again when I asked him to. I really liked it. Not just for the ‘during sex’ of it, but because that bit of pain turned me on. I wanted more.

I perused websites and chat rooms. I absorbed all I could in terms of good and bad advice and articles. I got to know the online populous and the wonderful people known as HNGs and brats. There were others that were real and I clung to them as my only source of real connection to what might be what I love and enjoy someday.

I left my husband when my desire to be kinky got too much for me to keep quiet. He wasn’t interested. It was a rocky break up but I’m over it now and hopefully he will move on someday too. I couldn’t have been his only reason for living.

My love is Master, who came all the way from England after talking with me online for over a year. He arrived on a chilly October day and this will be his 4rd year with me. We learn slowly and carefully everything we want to be to each other and are living this life on our terms. We are not copying anyone or anything. A lot of what we do may be different than what is expected in these circles bu tit works for us. It is our harmony.

I am not a natural submissive. It has been a hard road to travel. I have a lot of ghosts in my closet and monsters under my bed to say that I can be the perfect person I seem to see in a lot of submissive blogs I read. Of course it’s only the snapshot that you get to see, not the whole picture.

I try to be honest and frank in my blog here. You won’t get any sugar coating and nothing is fake. I tell it like it is, no matter how wrong it may seem for you, this is my life and I won’t be interrupted by some silly thoughts that I’m not normal or that what I do or how I act isn’t submissive. I am submissive because I choose to be and that’s good enough for me.

Welcome to my blog, enjoy the trip and trust me… you are going to want to dig into those archives someday.

I’d like to say hello to all my readers and lurkers alike. Come on out of the woodwork for this special day and say hi! I’d love to know that you are there. Let me know your thoughts and opinions about the blog.