BDSM is Love

Sexual desire is something that I take for granted. I have it, I wax and wan and sometimes I can’t get enough. But what I have noticed is that I have problems asking for what I want. Like Master is just supposed to know that I’d like him to finger my asshole, or rub my clit harder. Part of me feels that if I ask for these things that I’m topping from the bottom, and I can see how that could be thought of as controlling the situation. I KNOW that Master would not appreciate it in a full blown scene. But sex is something different.

I’ve got to learn to ask for what I’d like. I know that he’d like to give it to me, please me as I please him. It’s that lovely give and take dance that we do when we are together. It’s a beautiful thing. But lately the dance has been one sided. I’ve been letting him lead and then wondering why I don’t feel as satisfied.

My body is saying that it wants this or I want that, but if I don’t voice it, how can that be fulfilled?

This all came about after sex tonight. I mentioned to Master that the asshole rubbing he did last time was great and I should have asked for more. Of course he affirmed that I should have, he would have gladly given me more pleasure.

So I need to learn to voice my desires. Now seems like as good a time as any.

–luna