BDSM is Love

Not really the training as in what I’m supposed to say in a structured way but how my mood, attitude and behavior affect how I say things to Master. I’ve been all royal and uppity with him on many occasions and while he’s been strict reminding me that I’m not supposed to talk that way to him I fear the reprimand when that polite reminder time wears thin.

Master requires that I’m polite, obedient and courteous at all time. I am to show him respect and honor his authority and decision when he makes one.  Now really I’m supposed to hold my own when decisions are being made as he does take my thoughts and opinions into his. But I have to stop arguing with whatever he decides. I have to stop giving him the ‘whatever’ glare.

Master has me writing a bit of a post or article or essay; whatever it may be called about how I should speak to him. I keep thinking of the ‘textbook’ way that it’s supposed to be done and not really thinking about it. Of course that means a few things for me.

1. I know what I’m supposed to be doing, so why am I not doing it? I need to set the example and not let the example run away from me. I can be kind, polite and courteous to Master and I must choose to bite my tongue when it isn’t appropriate
2. I get a temper and just want to vent but I do this incorrectly. I am certain that Master would be willing to let me vent in the right arena, but at his face about anything and everything is NOT the way to do it. I need to be more open with my need to vent or throw a temper.
3. Speaking to Master requires forethought, something I don’t normally do ( and subsequently get in trouble for). I am by no means perfect at this whole submissive stuff but I am learning and with that comes the lesson of patience and preparation. I need to know what I want to say before I say it; this will keep me from wanting to put my foot in my mouth later.

So, I’m attempting to modify a behavior that until now has really grated on Master’s nerves and warmed my cheeks when he’s chastised me. I have to learn, I will learn and I’ll be the best I can be.

–luna