BDSM is Love

I can with all confidence say that I am submissive. I may have lost my way for awhile and it did affect our relationship severely. You ask me again what makes me submissive and I really can’t find anything more to add to what I have already said once before. To reiterate them here; my willingness to please, I’m extremely honest and open about my feelings, I have a desire to give up control of things in my life and maybe my entire world someday and lastly I can foresee how my actions and behaviors may affect you. The renewed collaring doesn’t change this. It may be more enhanced but I am who I am, until you mold me into something more.

I give my all to you, something I have been hesitant to do. I feel more open to you and susceptible to changes in the dynamic more than I thought I would. I can sense your moods, I try to anticipate your desires and needs more than I have and I feel more at peace with your love and commitment wrapped around my throat. This changes me just a bit. I’m not only A submissive, I’m YOUR submissive. Being your submissive I desire to serve only you, make your world all it can be and to encourage you to develop and grow as my dominant and lover. I hope that my strength can be your strength and that my love will shower you in happiness. I know that we will continue to grow closer together as a couple and enforce the dynamic as we wish it to be.

Being in a power exchange invariably means that there will be some give and take. Otherwise it wouldn’t be exchange. You have asked me what I would like to receive on my end of the exchange. For what you give to me, which will be discussed further down, I would like to receive the following from you.

• Happiness – I want to be happy as frequently as possible. The joy that I receive will continue to feed my need to please you more and more. I know that you can tell when I’m happy and when I’m not. This has an affect on how I serve. A happy subbie is a more productive one!
• Love – I want to know that above all else that while I am your submissive I am also your love and lover. I want to allow for times when it’s just right to be romantic, mushy, and just enjoy each other’s company on a person to person basis, not always D/s.
• Stress-free – I know that there is a lot that you don’t have control over that I worry about. Heck I don’t have control over it either but yet I worry. I would however, like to know that the things that can be controlled are safe, secure and no need to fuss over them. This could be as small as making sure we have food for dinner to knowing that you will pitch in with chores if my day gets overrun with other things.
• Security – I want to feel safe; physically, mentally and emotionally free and comfortable. I’d like to know that no matter what happens you are there for me. I’d like that reinforced whenever the need arises so that I may never question if you will be there for me or not.
• Comfort – I want to know that no matter what I do, where I go or how I handle things that I can run to you and cry, rant, hug or otherwise draw strength from you. I don’t want to have to explain my need at the moment, however I want to be expected to explain myself when the need for comfort is over.
• Firm hand – I want to know that the rules you set out for me to do will be enforced in one manner or another. Part of why I choose a power exchange relationship is because I need that accountability in my actions. If I know that there will be consequences if I fail, I will endeavor to work harder at achieving what you set before me.
• Fairness – I want to know that you will weigh all circumstances before passing judgment. I want the punishment to fit the crime, so to speak. If I lapsed into speech with no please or thank you, I’d like to know that it will be treated less than if I lied or other superior error.

In return for all that you give me I am sure that I have plenty to reciprocate. My obedience should come to you without hesitation and as that is achieved some of the things I hope I give to you in return for what you provide me should blossom.

• I hope I provide you love. My heart is constantly filled with joy that I know I love you and want to show you whenever I can how much you mean to me. Perhaps that’s why I vocalize it so much. You are my world and I want you a part of it as long as I can.
• I will provide you with sanity. When the world just doesn’t make sense anymore I want you to be able to come to me, focus on nothing and let me be that peace you need desperately. I want to be that shoulder you can rest on, and the escape from a hard day.
• I will provide you with sexual release whenever I can. I know that to be connected to me you need intimacy and that you draw your lust into a soft of aura around you. I hope I can be the outlet for those feelings for many many years. I will continue to work on not hesitating when you request something I am not in the mood for; for your pleasure I need to serve you completely.
• I will provide honesty and truthfulness in all my actions and behaviors so that you will never have to wonder if what I am doing is for you alone. My focus will be on you.
• I will provide you happiness and joy beyond measure. I hope to be the light of your world and bring you comfort and smiles for my obedience and good behavior. My submission to you should be the best it can be to give you this peace.
• I will give you my promise to work hard on whatever tasks you give me; to excel at all that you find important for me to learn and I will not take criticism hardly but use it to improve upon what you wish of me.

Overall, I hope to give you all that you need to be at peace, in love and D/s with a goal of reaching a point where no one can say we still have a ways to go. I want to reach the stars with you and our goals will be secure in our hearts and love of each other. I am committed to making sure that my side of the exchange is fluid and powerful and that you can continue to feel more confident in your role.

–luna