BDSM is Love

There are several aspects of appearance that I need to be aware of for Master. These are physical appearance, dress and health. Within each of these requirements I need to do certain things to appease him. I am fighting with the way I was raised, and they laziness I fell into when I got married. All of these bad habits must end. I must care for Master’s possession with the up-most care and while each day is a new baby step I know that in some respects I will always be struggling.

Physical Appearance

I am not to leave the house without makeup. This has been a very hard one to relearn. I used to leave for class everyday with make up on before I got married. Some reason or another I became uncaring what I looked like and stopped the habit. Now I am forced to get back into the habit. I know he does this because he sees the response in me when I do wear makeup. I love it. It makes me feel desirable and sexy and it shows. I still have my days where I forget till I’m almost out the door and carelessly through on some eye pencil and blush so that I can pass his inspection if he so deems it necessary.

I have begun on my own to start caring for my hair more than I have; now that I have a lot more hair than I ever have before. Master prefers it down, but I prefer it partially up so that it’s out of my face and when I’m lazy I try to get away with a ponytail. Not always successful though. I’ve begun to experiment with styling products so that my long locks are still manageable throughout the day and not frizzy piles of brown tresses.

Dress

My outward appearance is something I’ve been working on since Master and I came together. He has always wished me to be presentable and dressed nicely. I used to always shed my outside clothes for more comfortable sweats, tees and pj’s. This isn’t acceptable now. While he hasn’t decided what he would wish me to wear, I know that he dislikes frumpy clothing; so I don’t wear it. Perhaps one day when luxury finds us he can decide on some sort of uniform (or lack thereof) for me.

Health

I am on a diet. Master has not forced me into it, I chose it for myself with the one understanding from him that if I were to start I can not stop till I reach a healthy safe weight and activity level. As of the time I write this I have lost 40 lbs. I’ve been stuck at this plateau for almost a year but I’ve not given up. I’m just not working as hard as I used to and it shows. I believe this may be the hardest change for me to do, but it will be the most worth it in the end. Along with the diet, Master expects that I eat healthy, drink plenty of water and that I ask to eat sweets (which I generally do). I still have a long way to go.

–luna