BDSM is Love

Dear Master,

I’m going to try to keep my irritation of today out of this letter, but please forgive me if that becomes impossible.

The feelings I get when I look back on this week are all encompassed on Saturday. When I woke you up wearing lingerie and feeling fresh and happy with life it was like coming back to where I needed to be. That look on your face was wonderful. Saturday overall was an awesome day. It was like a coming together of our minds and souls, something that I think has been fractured for some time. I feel more connected to you now than I have for a long while.

I can’t believe I went through an entire week without doing anything to be noted in the punishment book! I’m so happy about that Hopefully I can keep going and have another week. I like rewards. Along that thought, I am rather glad we tossed the exercise punishment. I can’t say what will really push me to succeed but I know that if I don’t move my ass soon I’m going to be back up to my highest weight and be more miserable than I am now.

I hate exercise, but I like the feeling I get after I’ve done it. It’s that sense of accomplishment that I need to keep going for the next go round on the exercise wheel. I keep thinking that exercise equipment would make that easier on me, but then again, it probably wouldn’t. That’s not to say that I wouldn’t love a treadmill someday! I need to sit down and set up rewards for making goals and stick to them. I need to stop planning and start living it.

Today has been hell. There I said it. I’m hungry, I’m irritable, I’ve had a hard day overall and all I want to do is go to bed. I can’t do that, but I can take a nap, and then get up and exercise and make dinner. Keep it simple right? I just have to put one foot in front of the other and find what makes my days fulfilled. Working towards a healthier me would do that. You are my inspiration. I’m so proud of your accomplishment so far!

I love you Master. I always thought that I’d be able to write love letters even after my heart has been claimed but each time I sit down to write out what I feel for you I get hung up on the love. It’s not a bad thing by any means but I just can’t find the words to express all that you mean to me. I hope you can see in my expression and my smile that I love you more than words could ever express.