Archive for Training


Celebrity Service for Master

In a recent thread on a forum I came across the word Celebrity Service as a form of service that you can classify as treating your owner as a celebrity in your service to them. Things such as opening doors, caufferring, ordering their food and handling service personnel all fall under this umbrella. Now I’ve [...]

That’s an Order

I’d like to think that I’m obedient. Master says I’m a good girl more often than I’ve been disciplined for doing wrong. That tells me I’m doing something right. Right?
Well lately Master has commented on my selective obedience. Things he says, if not said ‘just right’ go into my brain as a suggestion or comment [...]

Discipline and Punishment

Reading across the blogosphere you will encounter these words almost synonymous to each other: Discipline and Punishment. The words are far from the same however some dynamics treat them the same. In fact for the longest time I have used the word punishment when I mean discipline. It’s even possible that Master has used these [...]

More than Anal Training

I’ve written about anal training before. You might be interested in my beginners post about anal training. My ass is going through a change. Master is preparing it for anytime use. I’m back on the schedule of wearing my butt plug every other night as a part of my bedtime routine. I don’t object to [...]

Cock Worship

Master has a beautiful cock. I love just looking at it. He is generally okay with my analysis when I like to stroke the veins, play with the triangular patch of skin of his ball sack until it wrinkles and I love watching it grow and move. I could spend hours transfixed at his crotch [...]

Serving to Serve vs. Serving for Pleasure

Serving to serve is one form of service I provide my Master. Somehow I’ve compartmentalized it from service for pleasure. It could just be my way of providing more service to him in different ways.
An example of service to serve is when I’m not in the mood for a blow job but I know he [...]

Processing Pain and Being a Masochist

Being that I’m a masochist, I love pain. I’ve never really thought about it or analyzed what that means really, but reading other people’s blogs has always helped me see that saying I’m masochist is just another huge personal term in BDSM as a whole. So, to think it though, this is what being a [...]

Progress in Training

During our munch this past Saturday we talked about training; specifically about training a submissive undergoes. I used myself as example quite a bit because I know what I’ve been through to process the training I am constantly under. From the humble beginnings of please and thank yous to opening doors, the proper apology into [...]

Amazing Submission: My Development

It’s really quite amazing that I have so much to say all the time about my submission to Master and the beauty of that is it continues to change and grow and extend into all facets of my life. Even when our daily life involves doing the dishes and fixing dinner I can feel my [...]

Far Away from Trying

I’m not doing so well keeping up with my blogging rule. I know that it will end up in the punishment book to be atoned for on Sunday. I was supposed to write a letter to Master on Sunday and I didn’t blog yesterday either. Now I’m writing to kinda make up for yesterday even [...]

Miscommunication

Yesterday was a battle of pig-headedness. Neither of us was communicating well and neither of us got what we wanted because of it. There were so many times I wished we could just rewind the day and start over.
A bit of back story… Master asked for a blow job. He asked for a specific blow [...]

Life is Worth Living

I have a headache, which means that this post will either be rambling or so full of thought that you wouldn’t believe I had a headache. Either way I’m sure it will be enjoyable. Come along for the ride.
I’ve been doing a lot of reevaluating my life lately. How I wonder if I’m working the [...]

Domestically Challenged

domestic -

of or pertaining to the home, the household, household affairs, or the family: domestic pleasures.
devoted to home life or household affairs.

We all have a home to live in; be it an apartment, house, mobile home, condo or mansion. We all have to do some housework to maintain that home. I admit that I do [...]

You May Come Now

Orgasm denial and control is a well documented activity online; you can find all sorts of thoughts and opinions, how-tos and what nots from anyone and everyone under the sun. I’m not intending to add any more new ideas to this topic. Here are, in my opinion, a couple of the better written essays out [...]

Saying No to Sex Acts

Saying no. This is a difficult essay for me. I assume you wanted me to write about when I say no to sexual things. A lot of the time when I say no, it has reason behind it. The rest of the time, I realize it is excuses. How I feel about saying no is [...]

Speaking

In previous posts I’ve talked about the speech training that Master has me learning. He’s finally come closer to what he wants me to do, and I’ve been practicing it as much as possible.
It’s been a hard trip, but I’ve slowly been changing how I say things to make it more like seeking permission instead [...]

Punishment Behavior

How should I behave when being punished and why my current behavior is inappropriate.
Punishment behavior is something I think is a learned behavior. As a child, you learn to cry and scream and pout, whine and all over be a terror whenever you are punished. At least that was how it was with me. I [...]

The Proper Apology

Master has suggested and then implemented a new method for my apology to him for forgetting a rule or any other infraction. He wants me to recite a phrase as an apology. “I was a bad girl Master, I’m sorry.” It’s something that is mildly humiliating to me and god I don’t want to get [...]

My Submissive Code of Ethics

I’ve been developing a submissive code of ethics for myself to help give me long term goals and a focus. I feel it will bring about change in me that perhaps I can’t see yet. As I develop each one listed below I will get more detailed as to how they help me in my [...]

It’s All About the Penis

It’s very important to make Master sexually happy at every possible moment. I have a bit of learning to do in this department. I’ve always hesitated when it comes to teasing Master’s cock with my mouth and hands. I love how he can make me feel with it, so it’s my turn to show him [...]