BDSM is Love

Saying no. This is a difficult essay for me. I assume you wanted me to write about when I say no to sexual things. A lot of the time when I say no, it has reason behind it. The rest of the time, I realize it is excuses. How I feel about saying no is [...]

A routine is another step towards the life that I see myself in as your submissive. I crave structure and order and while I’m terrible at doing this for myself, I feel that I can do it for you. I will extend myself to following a routine to please you and improve myself. I want [...]

…have my sponsors all gone? I’ve had people say they were going to pledge but haven’t yet. It makes me nervous. Should I lower my goal? Is it way out of my league? Are people not wanting to pledge? I have 19 days left people, crack open those wallets!
Thank you so much to everyone who [...]

Master has agreed to let me come up with writing assignment topics for my weekly assignments on my rules list. I’ve started a mental list and will make an actual list this weekend probably. Of course I’m going to be able to come up with some, but I think that those that read my blog [...]

Well, if you hadn’t noticed I’ve not posted here much this week. My domain may have been down for you temporarily. I had to change my DNS server. Sensual Service was down longer and may still be down for some of you. It will come back up (hopefully before Sunday’s posting of journal prompts) [...]

Next month begins a few challenges for me. First I want to get back into keeping my food diary on Fitday.com. I think it will help me keep on track with my diet. It will make me more accountable and aware of what I’m eating now that I’m working full time. Perhaps I’m not making [...]

Work was so very busy! I can’t imagine doing all that I did today in just 4 hours; thank God I now have 8. I look forward to finally getting everything done that I’ve always wanted to. Now to just catch up on my sleep pattern… (Suze promises that it will get better, someday….) It [...]

Now that I have my rules laid out, I have to try to start following them. I know that the next few weeks are going to be rocky as I learn them, get used to them and be constantly reminded of things he has initiated. While I am more than ready, I’m also very nervous [...]

A routine is another step towards the life that I see myself in as your submissive. I crave structure and order and while I’m terrible at doing this for myself, I feel that I can do it for you. I will extend myself to following a routine to please you and improve myself. I want [...]

I am submissive. I have qualities in my person and my behavior that lead me to this conclusion. As a part of my essay here, I will discuss my qualities as they are now, how I’d like them enhanced in the development and training I hope to go through. After that I want to [...]

This essay is a pretty old one, it was part of a punishment for not shaving… almost 3 years ago. It still is very true for me though, so I’m sharing it here. It’s making me think about how I’m following/not following the rules I have now and how I can work harder at succeeding [...]

Saying no. This is a difficult essay for me. I assume you wanted me to write about when I say no to sexual things. A lot of the time when I say no, it has reason behind it. The rest of the time, I realize it is excuses. How I feel about saying no is [...]

To be in the mood or not in the mood, that’s quite a challenging question. I have been pondering all week just how to get me in the mood to play when it seems apparent that I’m not in my kinky head space. Anything could make me not interested in play, whether it’s work, stress, [...]

(This was written a while ago, but rereading it sure helps me recenter.)
It’s always hard to figure out who you are as a person, I can’t say that I know everything there is to know about myself, but I am willing to give it a try to at least let you see who I think [...]

I wrote this essay for the advice columns for The Iron Gate. I thought I’d share it here.
“It’s so hard to find someone in the Lifestyle that I’m compatible with. You are so lucky to have found someone.”
I don’t know how many times I hear this on a daily basis when conversing. It always brings [...]

Submission by Choice: How to Work Your Way Back to Yourself
Submission has been called a gift. It has been said to be a natural characteristic. Submission is also a choice. When I first entered the lifestyle, no one would have mistaken me for a submissive. I am strong willed, commanding and independent. I have [...]

I hear on a daily basis that this person or that person is a natural submissive. These people don’t have to work to feel that quiet place in themselves that helps them feel the need to please and serve others. It’s just a part of who they are. For those people, there are a multitude [...]