BDSM is Love

It never seems to work. I try to compartmentalize my diet and health changes and that blog just sits idle. I guess I really can’t keep more than one blog. It’s all me so why do I have to try to separate it. I guess I was just trying to sort out the boring stuff [...]

There are several aspects of appearance that I need to be aware of for Master. These are physical appearance, dress and health. Within each of these requirements I need to do certain things to appease him. I am fighting with the way I was raised, and they laziness I fell into when I got married. [...]

Yes, I’ve brought up this debate here before and I’ve read it in a hundred places too. Your blogs out there are teeming with it on occasion. Is the desire to be submissive natural or is it part of the way you were brought up? Especially when there was abuse involved. Those internal radars go [...]

I’ve been sick the past few days, some sort of stomach bug I can’t complain. It came on all of a sudden on Tuesday and I’ve had that icky feeling the past few days. I’m going to have to go to work tomorrow because I just can’t miss another day. I’ll feel so far behind.
I [...]

I complain… a lot. Every time something is suggested or commanded I have to come back with a why, or I don’t feel like it or other some such reason. I’m sure for me that complaining is an active part of my everyday life. It’s an attempt at control. I don’t like the request or [...]

I’ve had to learn a lot about courtesy and respect since I met Master. I am ashamed to admit that my family was rude, obnoxious and crude. I picked it up and didn’t bat an eyelash when I treated people poorly. I was described by my best friend as being harsh and without tact. I [...]

As we both already know, I am not naturally submissive. I don’t have the need to serve and please everyone all the time and worst of all I don’t stay in the right mindset to please you all the time either. It’s a balancing act of love and trust and desire for you that brings [...]

Thank you for all the comments on the Thursday Question regarding restraints. They were fabulous to read!
I am a rope slut. I love the feel of rope binding me and restricting my movements. As soon as the rope touches my skin I get a sense of floating and happiness that I don’t get with any [...]

The goals of any submissive are as varied as the relationship as to which they tend. I’ve been given the task of naming the goals I currently have within my submission and then explain how I plan on working towards them. A daunting task indeed! I’ve really not given it much thought honestly before now [...]

Yesterday was my one year anniversary of being collared. We hadn’t even noticed it until I saw the post in my memories sidebar area. I can’t believe a year has gone by. It feels like only a few months ago that he wrapped that piece of leather around my neck and I asked if I [...]

Today it is all about my attitude. Not that I’m a smart mouth and need it slapped clear off my face, but that I’m very negative. Master has always seen that in me and so have many of the readers of my blog. I don’t want to be negative and can’t really understand why I’m [...]

I can with all confidence say that I am submissive. I may have lost my way for awhile and it did affect our relationship severely. You ask me again what makes me submissive and I really can’t find anything more to add to what I have already said once before. To reiterate them here; my [...]

Each relationship that we pursue is going to be unique and different. We can not compare one person’s dynamic with another’s even if we can agree that it is under the term of BDSM that we hold this relationship. In a recent comment on the post Speech Training there came up a need for me [...]

After putting my wrist braces on I prepared myself for what Master had planned.
He handed me a couple ear plugs and explained that not only was I going to be tied to the bed using our new tie down points, but I was going to be thrown into sensory deprivation.  He secured thatdamngag in my [...]

I’ve seen this floating around and thought I’d add my own thoughts:
1. What did you do in 2007 that you’d never done before?
Went to a porn shop. I’ve not been afraid to, just never had the desire. Now I think Master and I go just as frequently as any other specialty store.
2. Did you keep [...]

From My Bottom Smarts
What do you believe constitutes “topping from the bottom?” Have you or your partner ever done this? If so, how was the situation handled? Are there occasions where “topping from the bottom” is acceptable or even desirable?
My definition of topping from the bottom is when the submissive begins to instruct the dominant [...]

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Master suggested that I think about some resolutions for next year, some goals I’d like to set for myself. I’ve been giving it some serious thought. I am hoping to have more desire to reach these goals than I did with last years. They kinda just fell away and I forgot them. Definitely not what [...]

Christmas has once again come to us with reminders to give, and love and share the joy of the season with others. Here at home, I have been a rather grinch this year. There are no Christmas decorations up, I have no tree to put my dad’s presents under. My gift to Master was something [...]

Naughty on Christmas Eve
When I was 6 I asked Santa for a dolly for Christmas. I wanted a really neat doll. One that seemed realistic. I prayed very hard that I could have one of those for Christmas.
Well, turns out I couldn’t sleep the night through on Christmas Eve. I think all children have that [...]