BDSM is Love

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Yesterday was a battle of pig-headedness. Neither of us was communicating well and neither of us got what we wanted because of it. There were so many times I wished we could just rewind the day and start over.
A bit of back story… Master asked for a blow job. He asked for a specific blow [...]

Yes, I’ve brought up this debate here before and I’ve read it in a hundred places too. Your blogs out there are teeming with it on occasion. Is the desire to be submissive natural or is it part of the way you were brought up? Especially when there was abuse involved. Those internal radars go [...]

Annual Ornaments
My grandmother (mom’s mom) started a tradition of giving each of her grandkids a special ornament for the Christmas tree each year. That was the one gift I really looked forward to from my grandma because they were the most awesome little trinkets. What made them even more special is that we were to [...]

The Mmm-Mmm Game
My Christmas’ as a child were filled with odd traditions and games my mom would play around the holidays. One of them was the Mmm-mmm game. Mom would wrap presents as soon as she bought them so that no one could discover them unwrapped and ruin it for themselves or another. So, presents [...]

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Master got me crayons! I got a Fairies coloring book too! Oh I’m such a lucky girl. I sat down and colored last night. It was great, euphoric even. Master knows me too well to know that a simple thing as coloring has made his girl happy.
We also got an egg dying kit. We are [...]

Yesterday was a day from hell and a clawing my way back up to life here on earth. Master and I had plans to play. No different than any other time. Those of you that read my blog regularly know that sometimes we just don’t get to it, other times we have our problems. This [...]

1.What time did you really get up this morning? 4:30am
2.Diamonds or Pearls? Diamonds while young, pearls when older
3.What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Pirates of the Carribean II
4.What is your favorite T.V. show? Mythbusters
5.What did you have for breakfast? Corn chex
6.What is your middle name? Lynn
7.What is your favorite cuisine? Chinese
8.What [...]

Gratitude. I see it in Gratitude Tuesdays on blogs all over the web. I see it in cards and stories this time of year. Sadly, I rarely see it throughout the year; some reason it’s only now, when it’s “scheduled” or “planned”. I’ve been reflecting lately on what I’m grateful for and how I can [...]

Basic Stats
Physical Features:

Brown hair
Blue eyes
6′ tall
300 lbs
Facial dimples
Freckles

Age: 30
Birthdate: October 24, 1977
Hobbies: Poetry, Spanish, Web development, Reading, Vampires, Learning, Cross-stitch/Emboidery
Marital Status: Separated (god I want to be divorced) and also collared to Master KnyghtMare
Family Data: 1 natural sister, 3 adopted brothers, 1 niece and 2 nephews, 1 godson
I’m very distant to my family though and [...]

For some people pain is pleasurable. For me it certainly is. I’m terrible at discussing the how’s and whys so I’m defering to an essay from Pyschology Today:

It’s nothing recognizable
and yet it hypnotizes your senses
so that all you ever smell
is that love; overpowering.
Wrapping you in the comfort
of home, the memory of childhood
or scenes of passion.
This scent permeates your soul;
bringing you back to the one.
The one that started your body,
stirred your mind and prickled your soul.
It is the one that you ache to [...]

After the activity from yesterday my body aches and my mental self feels released. I can say that yesterday something in me clicked right and I felt myself again. No longer did I feel a shell of myself satisfying Master’s needs. I was there in the moment and I wanted to please him as best [...]

Master has noted that I’m not home much this week. I’m so busy with classes and work and working out and munch functions that he hasn’t gotten a lot of my time. This is just one of those things that happens in a regular relationship. Sometimes it’s just impossible to be at Master’s feet all [...]

I’ve not had a very good couple of days. I don’t know what has triggered this new ’bout of memories, but I’m not liking it and there’s no where I can really turn. My childhood was broken, which sadly isn’t as uncommon anymore as it should be. Since I left home in 1996, I thought [...]

This may seem cheesy to some of you, but the hand is an awesome BDSM toy. It can do many many things that another toy just can’t do. Besides sexually tease your partner it is an excellent spanking tool *grin* and the tactile contact of the partner to the bottom is very emotional and draws [...]

While it is supposed that abused people need more love and care than others it can’t be typecast. The majority of people I know have not been abused as children. There is no cause and effect relationship between childhood abuse and becoming a BDSM practitioner.
No song this time, sorry folks.
–luna

Wednesday… half the week gone and I am doing terribly at my plans for a new lifestyle of changes and improvements. I constantly beat myself up for them and do nothing about it. Well it’s about time I do something about it. Granted it is small things, baby steps that I need to make real [...]

Munch last night was great. I don’t know what it is about meeting with people and socializing that makes me feel renewed and happy. We met a couple new people and there was some wonderful discussions about anything and everything.
I have my BDSM presentation on campus on Tuesday and I think that it will be [...]

That essay test yesterday was very challenging. I hope I did a good job. I filled up the entire bluebook. Now that the stress is gone from that test I can relax a bit. WRONG I have so much homework this weekend, I will be running hard just to catch up. Thank god Spring Break [...]